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wow...its amazing how much you can realize about yourself on a trip to new york. so when i left i thought i was totally fine about the break up with travis and that everything was fine. but then i realized i've been totally weird and un louisa lately.
- I've been really bitchy and annoying
- I have had like absolutly no energy. In New York I was about to pass out after walking like two long blocks.
- (this one might sound stupid but its crazy) In a chinese restaurant we went to I was having unvegetarian thoughts. I really wanted some of my sisters orange chicken. I have never had chicken!!
- I am like constantly worried about how I look. On friday night I spent like 10 minutes deciding what to wear on saturday...pink tank top, white shirt, green pants vs. white tank top, black pants. Since when do i really care about this stuff????
- (this one I find the most disturbing) I have been totally totally boy crazy!!! Ok so when i wasnt thinking about how i looked or eating meat or even when i was, i was thinking about guys. guys guys guys and more guys. It was crazy cause im not like that. i mean i say if i think i guys was hot but like this was way more then that. ok but there was this really hot guy in the hostile (me and my family stayed at a hostile in ny and it was awesome) and he was like an abrocrombie model except my age. and he was wearing a nfg shirt and worn out black converse. *droooooool* aww, whats wrong with me
ok so my diagnoses is that i'm not actually fine with the break up. i miss travis. i dunno if its missing him as a bf or missing him as a friend. im so confused but like ive been thinking about him a lot and like everything remind me of him.
- ok so there was this big sign that said travel and there was this thing covering it and so it said TRAV in giant giant letters.
- (get this) i saw this woman walking down the street wearing the sexy red yete hat, travis's sexy red yete hat.
- Xiang-nian ni, thats what it said on the learn chinese thing on the back of my fortune, guess what that means. miss you
i think im going crazy. but you guys really shouldnt be worried about me. realizing theres something wrong with me has made me feel slightly better...