Kill Bill
I'm tired. Tired of everything. Tired of my mom not liking me and Tommy together again...maybe. Tired of people getting mad at me for things that are truly not my fault. Tired of feeling alone. Tired of /being/ alone. Tired of stupid movies. Tired of stupid people. I'm cold and shaky and alone. At least that's how I feel. I'm worried about Tommy. I realized today that i love him and cannot get rid of him even if I wanted to, and I thought I did. I've loved him for too long. And I hate that. Actually, I love that. He makes me happy. I mean, he has made me sad in the past, but that's why I love him. Because he can still make me happy even though...I don't know. I just love him.
Mike yelled at me because I didn't get his text messages. How gay is that? I don't even want to go out to eat with him tomorrow anymore. Even as just friends. Maybe Tommy will come to Wellston with me and Brittany..? I want to see him tomorrow. I don't care what mom or/and dad say.
I'm so cold. I think I'm about to go through another wave of depression. I'm not excited about it either. I'm starting to shake. I can't sleep. And I feel empty...no emotion (I haven't cried in almost 2 weeks), no respect for my parents (I went crazy yelling at my mom tonight), no worries (not about me anyway). I don't know.
I wish life wasn't so hard.
Mike yelled at me because I didn't get his text messages. How gay is that? I don't even want to go out to eat with him tomorrow anymore. Even as just friends. Maybe Tommy will come to Wellston with me and Brittany..? I want to see him tomorrow. I don't care what mom or/and dad say.
I'm so cold. I think I'm about to go through another wave of depression. I'm not excited about it either. I'm starting to shake. I can't sleep. And I feel empty...no emotion (I haven't cried in almost 2 weeks), no respect for my parents (I went crazy yelling at my mom tonight), no worries (not about me anyway). I don't know.
I wish life wasn't so hard.