Sucking in breath, my head above water
Things are feeling a little less strained and distraught here.
Anthony arrived last night armed with chocolate and a t-shirt for me, which was unexpected. He got angry on my behalf, but I talked him down from some of his more colourful suggestions. I was most hurt about the fact that someone thought so badly of me - beta abuse amongst other things - and that such things were rooted in a horrible kind of truth.
Thankfully, I got a reply to my apologetic email. They felt bad about posting about it all and I (still) felt guilty about how I'd made them feel. It looks like this friendship can be salvaged, which is the most important thing, and that they know I didn't mean to make them feel that way at all. Thanks to all for their encouraging messages and thoughts.
Anthony arrived last night armed with chocolate and a t-shirt for me, which was unexpected. He got angry on my behalf, but I talked him down from some of his more colourful suggestions. I was most hurt about the fact that someone thought so badly of me - beta abuse amongst other things - and that such things were rooted in a horrible kind of truth.
Thankfully, I got a reply to my apologetic email. They felt bad about posting about it all and I (still) felt guilty about how I'd made them feel. It looks like this friendship can be salvaged, which is the most important thing, and that they know I didn't mean to make them feel that way at all. Thanks to all for their encouraging messages and thoughts.