For applefaerie, stories of tiny-luna. pre-fire days :)
When I was a little girl, i learned about Sex in school. Well, one day i came home and sat with my mother at the table and said..
"Mom.. I know what you and Daddy did, and i want you to know, it's O.K.".
I said it like I was older and they had done something they really shouldnt have been doing, but i forgave them..
My mother was stunned.
when i was 3, i told my principal he was full of baloney the first time I met him.
when i was little, i put nerf balls in my shirt as breasts. and stuck animals under my shirt as well - as babies. i wanted to see what i'd look like pregnant.
i walked around holding hands with Todd when I was 5 and declared i was going to marry him. we were best friends for 2 years then he moved away. we continued a long distance relationship as my mother drove me to Rhode Island and back. Then it ended.. when i was 9 and 10, i'd sit in the playground on this stump that I used to pretend was my stump and mine alone.. and i'd think about Todd. I'd think that Whatever was wrong with my life at the time was ok because greater days were ahead. I daydreamed that we'd meet again some day when we were old (20?) and fall in love.. and get married. I even thought about him sometimes in middle school. my heart doesnt change much. He's 23 now and I've met him once or twice since that age of 10. He's married to a girl named J something & says I was his first girlfriend.
i used to make up elaborated stories and families. i'd make up all these sisters and brothers, i wrote their names down on paper to keep track of them.. along with their ages, whether or not they had boyfriends/girlfriends, what they did, what their personalities were and so forth. I'd act out scenarios in the living room with all these made up family members. in these made up stories, i often had a barn of horses.
My bestfriend in the whole world was Debbie. (She still is my bestfriend but we dont talk as much as we used to). We would play make believe with such detail, you wouldnt believe it. We pretended we were in HS and then in college.. we even acted out our weddings. There was such detail. "Do you want to pretend we're gettin gmarried today or do you want to do the HS story" - or something like that. We'd have careers.. we described our men in great detail, including their background histories.
She still remembers the biggest lie i ever told her. I was mad because she told me Santa Claus wasnt true.. so i made up this story about an imaginary box that I had which kept this imaginary friend inside. Deb and I both rode the same 'school bus' cabs to school ands he was dropped off at home first. i told her that as soon as she got out of the cab, the imaginary friend came. she apparently felt incredibly left out (i only just recently found this out). i keep up this lie for a good couple of months. its the longest i've ever kept a lie. I dont think i ever admitted it was a lie. i was so good at this that even i believed it eventually.
when i was little i demanded that my teachers call me by names other than my own. molly sue. claudia. etcera. this wasnt because i didnt like my own name, but because i was pretending to be someone else. it was easy to tell that i'd be an actress one day.
thats all for now.
:)
im going to sleep. i'm not fond of being awake at night these days.
"Mom.. I know what you and Daddy did, and i want you to know, it's O.K.".
I said it like I was older and they had done something they really shouldnt have been doing, but i forgave them..
My mother was stunned.
when i was 3, i told my principal he was full of baloney the first time I met him.
when i was little, i put nerf balls in my shirt as breasts. and stuck animals under my shirt as well - as babies. i wanted to see what i'd look like pregnant.
i walked around holding hands with Todd when I was 5 and declared i was going to marry him. we were best friends for 2 years then he moved away. we continued a long distance relationship as my mother drove me to Rhode Island and back. Then it ended.. when i was 9 and 10, i'd sit in the playground on this stump that I used to pretend was my stump and mine alone.. and i'd think about Todd. I'd think that Whatever was wrong with my life at the time was ok because greater days were ahead. I daydreamed that we'd meet again some day when we were old (20?) and fall in love.. and get married. I even thought about him sometimes in middle school. my heart doesnt change much. He's 23 now and I've met him once or twice since that age of 10. He's married to a girl named J something & says I was his first girlfriend.
i used to make up elaborated stories and families. i'd make up all these sisters and brothers, i wrote their names down on paper to keep track of them.. along with their ages, whether or not they had boyfriends/girlfriends, what they did, what their personalities were and so forth. I'd act out scenarios in the living room with all these made up family members. in these made up stories, i often had a barn of horses.
My bestfriend in the whole world was Debbie. (She still is my bestfriend but we dont talk as much as we used to). We would play make believe with such detail, you wouldnt believe it. We pretended we were in HS and then in college.. we even acted out our weddings. There was such detail. "Do you want to pretend we're gettin gmarried today or do you want to do the HS story" - or something like that. We'd have careers.. we described our men in great detail, including their background histories.
She still remembers the biggest lie i ever told her. I was mad because she told me Santa Claus wasnt true.. so i made up this story about an imaginary box that I had which kept this imaginary friend inside. Deb and I both rode the same 'school bus' cabs to school ands he was dropped off at home first. i told her that as soon as she got out of the cab, the imaginary friend came. she apparently felt incredibly left out (i only just recently found this out). i keep up this lie for a good couple of months. its the longest i've ever kept a lie. I dont think i ever admitted it was a lie. i was so good at this that even i believed it eventually.
when i was little i demanded that my teachers call me by names other than my own. molly sue. claudia. etcera. this wasnt because i didnt like my own name, but because i was pretending to be someone else. it was easy to tell that i'd be an actress one day.
thats all for now.
:)
im going to sleep. i'm not fond of being awake at night these days.