bored+meh mood= post?
hi again, obviously i dont update regularly anymore, just when i feel like i have something to say...idk why i keep feeling like i need to justify this, its not like ANYONE ELSE I KNOW EVER updated daily at ANY point...but somehow i still feel guilty? like im providing a service with failing quality :P
ANYWAYS so, hi
yesterday was my day off since i worked the weekend and MAN DID I NEED IT, for various reasons some of which i can't really get into, sunday was hella stressful at work, and im still sorta stressed about it because im not sure what aftermath there will be today when i get in. Basically, i didn't do anything wrong...but there may be drama i have to deal with as a manager-type-person. BOO DRAMA
also i spent the morning tracking down old doctors and filling out paperwork because i realized i STILL havent gotten my medical history from any of them, which i kind of need for my next appointment with my NEW doctor so i can get more ADD meds....which i kind of ran out of....because i wasn't paying attention and i thought my new doctor was going to call me to set up an appointment. oops. so part of it is my own fault and part of it is other people, also i hate bureocracy and paperwork in general. no really, i HATE it it stresses me out its like homework from hell because in the back of my mind im terrified if i do it wrong i'll accidentally commit fraud or something and be taken away to jail. or something. ITS A LEGITIMATE FEAR OKAY??? YOU CAN'T ERASE BLACK AND BLUE INK OH GOD
ahem, anyways, point being i'm waiting for A) my new insurance card to show up, cuz then i know %100 for sure that im now under goodwill umbrella (which means i pay a LOT less for meds, i got my dental card already so it should be any day now) and B) my stupid medical history things cuz there are meds im allergic to on there that i can't remember the name of. BEING AN ADULT IS HARD
and now im stressed on top of this cuz well, i ran out of meds? its not like it used to be, i don't turn into some hyperactive giggly version of myself, but i do get more spacey and more talkative, and i already have been really bad about turning off the stove or blowing out candles so im worried what crazy shit i'll do WITHOUT anything to help me concentrate. i just hope no one really notices at work....if things go well i'll only be med free for like....3 or 4 days. but this could drag out to like 2 weeks if the doctors office is busy. idk i hate that i can't just have like a prescription for a year straight and then only go in for a yearly check-up/ get a new Rx. idk its a hassle, its gonna bother me less though now that im on this new coverage cuz my copay will be WAY less, yeah goodwill doesn't pay a lot but for me at least, they more than make up for it with benifits.
so uh, yes.that's whats bothering me today. in case you were curious.
oh shit and i have to ask about where our W2 forms are at work too... sometimes i feel like a failure for letting my dad do my taxes and lots of other paperwork things for me, but most of the time i am SO GRATEFUL. does sucking at paperwork make me a dysfunctional adult? adults do paperwork right? ugh whatever.
if paperwork is the only part of life that really stresses me out anymore, than i'm doing pretty good.
yes.
OH HEY MAIL lets see if anything i want is in there *crosses fingers*
....not really, a reminder from the vet to get zara checked out, it was sort of fun last time :P toy and i were pretending it was her first day at school :P the vet is literally across the street so shes barely in the car at all which i like.
alright ENOUGH RAMBLING
ADIOS
<3
ANYWAYS so, hi
yesterday was my day off since i worked the weekend and MAN DID I NEED IT, for various reasons some of which i can't really get into, sunday was hella stressful at work, and im still sorta stressed about it because im not sure what aftermath there will be today when i get in. Basically, i didn't do anything wrong...but there may be drama i have to deal with as a manager-type-person. BOO DRAMA
also i spent the morning tracking down old doctors and filling out paperwork because i realized i STILL havent gotten my medical history from any of them, which i kind of need for my next appointment with my NEW doctor so i can get more ADD meds....which i kind of ran out of....because i wasn't paying attention and i thought my new doctor was going to call me to set up an appointment. oops. so part of it is my own fault and part of it is other people, also i hate bureocracy and paperwork in general. no really, i HATE it it stresses me out its like homework from hell because in the back of my mind im terrified if i do it wrong i'll accidentally commit fraud or something and be taken away to jail. or something. ITS A LEGITIMATE FEAR OKAY??? YOU CAN'T ERASE BLACK AND BLUE INK OH GOD
ahem, anyways, point being i'm waiting for A) my new insurance card to show up, cuz then i know %100 for sure that im now under goodwill umbrella (which means i pay a LOT less for meds, i got my dental card already so it should be any day now) and B) my stupid medical history things cuz there are meds im allergic to on there that i can't remember the name of. BEING AN ADULT IS HARD
and now im stressed on top of this cuz well, i ran out of meds? its not like it used to be, i don't turn into some hyperactive giggly version of myself, but i do get more spacey and more talkative, and i already have been really bad about turning off the stove or blowing out candles so im worried what crazy shit i'll do WITHOUT anything to help me concentrate. i just hope no one really notices at work....if things go well i'll only be med free for like....3 or 4 days. but this could drag out to like 2 weeks if the doctors office is busy. idk i hate that i can't just have like a prescription for a year straight and then only go in for a yearly check-up/ get a new Rx. idk its a hassle, its gonna bother me less though now that im on this new coverage cuz my copay will be WAY less, yeah goodwill doesn't pay a lot but for me at least, they more than make up for it with benifits.
so uh, yes.that's whats bothering me today. in case you were curious.
oh shit and i have to ask about where our W2 forms are at work too... sometimes i feel like a failure for letting my dad do my taxes and lots of other paperwork things for me, but most of the time i am SO GRATEFUL. does sucking at paperwork make me a dysfunctional adult? adults do paperwork right? ugh whatever.
if paperwork is the only part of life that really stresses me out anymore, than i'm doing pretty good.
yes.
OH HEY MAIL lets see if anything i want is in there *crosses fingers*
....not really, a reminder from the vet to get zara checked out, it was sort of fun last time :P toy and i were pretending it was her first day at school :P the vet is literally across the street so shes barely in the car at all which i like.
alright ENOUGH RAMBLING
ADIOS
<3