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so i'm just here with so much on my mind....why would you wanna argue all the time? we always end up in the same old spot...hows' it gonna work when i'm away at ocu....i just don't know...it's so crazy like i'm torn...u say it benefits you then do it but i can't be there for that and maybe you should prioritize....things that benefit ur life or me...i mean maybe i'm not worth it like i'll never agree or support it....i'm sorry...last nite was sad like i didn't know what else to say...i get angry and i hate the way it makes me feel...i want to be happy and i want you to be happy too...but that shit always makes me wanna just leave....i get so annoyed by it and it's put our relationships in danger many times....but you still like it...which means u've made ur decision...but you can't let go....so sad...maybe i am your SAD STORY.....fuck that shit....i don't know what to do i don't know how to release my anger but it shouldn't affect what u want to do...i am going to follow my dreams and goals in life and if i have to do it by myself i will...i love to dance and teach and no one can stop me...if you like ur organization that much then no one should stop u and maybe i'm not where you want to be yet...maybe you should figure urself out before you say things you don't mean about "love" and "always and forever...." u just want me to close my eyes to that but i won't...i don't want to be in denial like you are...i plan and i guess before you joined you didn't plan it out and realize we'd fight and get sad and angry every event...i'm so on edge right now about this shit cuz i'm tired of it and tired of getting upset...like it happens all the time....what do you want to do just go on like we have been....just forget our lil fight and go one until our next one...."austin"....i'm not down....if you were me you wouldn't be either....but you tell me what you want....what you would do....