This is bullshit.
Those letters who begin with 'Dear' are not my style.
i have nobody to call dear. I also dont have anyone i can call anything but 'excuse me'.
so ill begin with the dull edge of the knife.
Nothing matters anymore, nor does it make sense.
I lied, i cheated, i hated, and i cried. I walked proud, and i never cared.
I never regretted before, and i never hoped for anything better either.
Never believed in god, but still prayed.
Ive been a hypocrite.
It unfortunate, for me to admit all this - Its against the rules, my rules.
there is just no reason to exist anymore.
and the near deaths dont bother me anymore.
and its a terrible thing, all ive done. will never understand why i made such a mistake without
ever considering its consequences.
i was a bad person, a bad boyfriend, a bad friend, a bad student. I felt like a social parasite,
never truly able to mingle with society.
But i had.
and i was unconditionally loved.
and i loved you.
i was going to marry you.
and spend every pendulum with you, till the end.
But it will never be.
You will never love me again.
and ill never live.
So now im finished, with the sharp edge of the knife.