So, I went home for Easter.
I meet my big brother, spent alot of time with the old Grandma that I love and miss and my Tio there, saw my lil' brother and sister and my nephew and niece (who is HUGE for 2 months!!!! she wears 6-9 mo clothes!!!), saw my aunt, a couple uncles a few cousins and thier kids (although some of the regulars were missing), pictures of my big brother's kids, my mom, my mom's boyfriend (suprisingly not his family though, i usually see them too), and my old church where apparently 9:30am Mass is no longer family Mass, it's spanish Mass. That was a lil' difficult, thank God for the misselette (sp?). Also got my car fixed. So i guess you can through in that I saw Mark the mechanic (dad's buddy) too. All of this happened in two days. And now I'm back in SC. May I say that I'm fucking EXHAUSTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck.
Hemet is stressful. I really love my family. With all my heart. But everytime I visist I remeber why I left and why I choose not to go back (even though the familia keeps asking over and over if I am).
I had a breakdown and just started crying one of the times I was alone driving to see my Grandma. Loving people hurts. Alot. Especially that many people with that many valid worries that sometimes they don't even see. I only yeld at my Dad once this time though. And we actually didn't get into it. Alrough I did regulate my time with him thouroughly.
Hemet is emotionally draining on me. Plus, it's not even Hemet anymore. I realized I don't even consider all of Hemet as Hemet. I swear to God half of it wasn't even there when I left. This is not even counting San Jacinto. Speaking of which... Holly, I saw Jon (from TWC) while I was ther too!!! I think he's the manager at Rite Aid. That was a lil' awkward.
So yeah, I love my family and actually I was glad to get to visit but I am thrilled to be back HOME. MY home.
I'm gonna be a ball of nerves when I take Ayush to meet the fam.
:)
<3
Fuck.
Hemet is stressful. I really love my family. With all my heart. But everytime I visist I remeber why I left and why I choose not to go back (even though the familia keeps asking over and over if I am).
I had a breakdown and just started crying one of the times I was alone driving to see my Grandma. Loving people hurts. Alot. Especially that many people with that many valid worries that sometimes they don't even see. I only yeld at my Dad once this time though. And we actually didn't get into it. Alrough I did regulate my time with him thouroughly.
Hemet is emotionally draining on me. Plus, it's not even Hemet anymore. I realized I don't even consider all of Hemet as Hemet. I swear to God half of it wasn't even there when I left. This is not even counting San Jacinto. Speaking of which... Holly, I saw Jon (from TWC) while I was ther too!!! I think he's the manager at Rite Aid. That was a lil' awkward.
So yeah, I love my family and actually I was glad to get to visit but I am thrilled to be back HOME. MY home.
I'm gonna be a ball of nerves when I take Ayush to meet the fam.
:)
<3