Confusion
oh geeze...i havent updated in a while...well..the white water rafting trip to tennessee got canceled cuz of those 2 dumb hurricanes...which really stinks...i was SO looking forward to that...they said they'll make it up to us...but i donno...i'll believe it when i see it...but anyway...that dumb hurricane charley ruined everything...i havent had power for almost a week now...it's horrible...i dont know if any of you have had to go without air conditioning, hot water, lights, etc. for several days...but if you havent you're so lucky...cuz it's the worst...taking freezing cold showers and then getting out tryin to get ready to go somewhere and then sweating cuz it's so hot and you might as well have not even taken a shower cuz you smell now..lol....anyway...i hope it comes back on soon...i've been traveling around to different friend's houses so i dont have to stay at home..but i'm missing it there...i havent slept in my bed in about a week...oh yea...and i recently decided that i was going to withdrawl from my school and start going to scc so i'd only have to take 3 hs classes and i could get a headstart on college classes...and i was all ready to go up there and withdrawl and everything and now i'm having second thoughts...like it would be cool and all not to have to wake up at 5:30 in the morning to get ready for school and only have to stay there for a couple hours a day instead of like 7...but this year i'm a senior...i've been waiting for this like my whole life...this is supposed to be the best year ever...and i've worked so hard my whole life to get to this point...if i left i'd miss my friends...i'd miss all the perks that come with being a senior...i'd miss chorus...i'd miss going out for senior lunch and racing back so we dont get in trouble for being late...i'd miss graduation with the people i've gone to school with my whole life...but then again...i feel like i could totally bomb this year...i've already started off on a bad foot...i've barely done any hw...i've missed a few tests...i have a feeling i'll fail calculus...and i've only gone to one of my classes twice...so i donno...maybe i'm just being too dramatic and thinking about this way too much but i only have a couple more days to make a choice before school reopens...so if anybody has any advice i could definitely use it....