hmmm....
so ohio was fun...about 20 thousand youth were there...the services were awsome...i had lots of fun...and came home changed...it was all around a pretty good trip...but on the way home my bf and i broke up...i prayed about it and although i really really care about him and love him i believe God has more out there for me...there's so much i want to do...i'm hardly the person i want to be...so right now i think is a good time for me to work on myself...it's soooo hard though...it's not like one of those break ups that were angry and mean...those are easy...this one was sooooo sad...i think about him ALL the time and i miss him so much...i want to call him and just talk to him like we used to but i know that will just make things harder on both of us...i know i will get over him but it's going to take a while...i mean i've got a year's worth of memories with him...every time i see a picture or a present from him or just anything that has to do with him, memories start flooding back into my head and it's so hard not to cry...some days i'm okay but some days that's all i can think about and i am just in a crappy mood for the whole day...these are the times when you can really be thankful for your friends...they've been there for me and tried to help keep my mind off of it...so i'm thankful for that...i'm definitely not dating anyone for a while...i'll be friends...and i'll get to know ppl...but i'm going to be so careful with relationships from now on...but anyway...on a lighter note...i started school today...it was okay...a little boring but not too bad...but i'm going to go find something to do....later