Ramblings of a caffeine addict
Ive tried to write this entry like a gazillionn times already, but it just isnt working for me. Im so freaking exhausted from uni work + teaching + dancing but the v + vanilla coke i had today is preventing my brain from slowing down. So hardcore not cool.
All i want to do is sleep. Maybe if i sleep for like a coupla months, maybe ill feel better. Maybe ill get out of this mood ive been in since like, well all year. I really wanted to have a better year than last year, coz 2005 really sucked ass. Yet no matter how hard i try, i cant shake this feeling. So many things get me down, and i obsess over the stupidest things, that i know are stupid and irrelevant. But im still obsessing about it. I make myself (physically) sick from worrying and getting all crazy over it. Theres those days where i feel i cant do anything right, and i hate everything that i see when i look at myself, but theyre getting more and more frequent and im not coping. And theres still hardly a day that goes by where i dont think about what happened last year. Its like my brain just wont let me forget, or have a break from it.
Whos up for sponsoring an island for me so i can just lie on a beach and breathe for a bit?
k thanx.
All i want to do is sleep. Maybe if i sleep for like a coupla months, maybe ill feel better. Maybe ill get out of this mood ive been in since like, well all year. I really wanted to have a better year than last year, coz 2005 really sucked ass. Yet no matter how hard i try, i cant shake this feeling. So many things get me down, and i obsess over the stupidest things, that i know are stupid and irrelevant. But im still obsessing about it. I make myself (physically) sick from worrying and getting all crazy over it. Theres those days where i feel i cant do anything right, and i hate everything that i see when i look at myself, but theyre getting more and more frequent and im not coping. And theres still hardly a day that goes by where i dont think about what happened last year. Its like my brain just wont let me forget, or have a break from it.
Whos up for sponsoring an island for me so i can just lie on a beach and breathe for a bit?
k thanx.