This post-modern thought can get the best of you
(I wasn't going to send this to you, but I saw you today and realized that we're just ignoring each other so someone might as well say SOMETHING)
Ok, so...this isn't a nasty confrontational e-mail or anything like that. I'm going to try really hard to make sure it doesn't come off like that. I'm actually really questioning why I'm even writing this because I don't feel like I should be the one writing to you first but...since you haven't said anything and I feel like we're just cut off, I guess I will.
I know you and I aren't BEST friends but I thought we were good friends. I considered you a good friend. Especially recently with everything going
on with Haley, I felt like ------ and ----- and I were definitely "there for you" more than ------.
I guess my feelings are just hurt. I thought that you were on my side. I just don't understand what happened New Years Eve, why you thought it was ok to bring ----over. Maybe that sounds petty but you know to me it's NOT. You of all people know that. I know you know EVERYTHING about ---- and my relationship, and I've heard many of your stories too. I know she's treated you like absolute shit for over a year. And if you wanted to be friends with her again, I realize it's not my place to question that, but I'm honestly really offended that you chose giving ---- a kick out of pissing ---- and I off over your friendship with ------ and I. The part I don't understand is that I KNOW you knew what would happen, there is no way this was a mistake or a misunderstanding or you thought it would be ok with us or something. It wasn't an accident, it was obviously done with a malicious intent.
With the risk of sounding cliche...I thought we were friends.
I'm really sad this happened and I don't even need you to reply to this if you don't want to, I just wanted to tell you where I am.
Take this is as you may, I'm not begging for an apology or anything because I don't even know if that would cut it anymore, but I'm sorry it happened because I really liked being friends with you. But I obviously valued our friendship more than you did.
Post highschool bullshit is almost hilarious in its completely self absorbed view of life.
I think that if I could choose between sleeping through all the stupid and cruel things I did in the past and sleep through now, I would choose now. If only so I could shut off the buzzing in my ear telling me that your just a pawn. Self destruction or an iron curtain is the only way to keep from going down. Fly the nest into the sea and become another brick in the proverbial wall.
Ok, so...this isn't a nasty confrontational e-mail or anything like that. I'm going to try really hard to make sure it doesn't come off like that. I'm actually really questioning why I'm even writing this because I don't feel like I should be the one writing to you first but...since you haven't said anything and I feel like we're just cut off, I guess I will.
I know you and I aren't BEST friends but I thought we were good friends. I considered you a good friend. Especially recently with everything going
on with Haley, I felt like ------ and ----- and I were definitely "there for you" more than ------.
I guess my feelings are just hurt. I thought that you were on my side. I just don't understand what happened New Years Eve, why you thought it was ok to bring ----over. Maybe that sounds petty but you know to me it's NOT. You of all people know that. I know you know EVERYTHING about ---- and my relationship, and I've heard many of your stories too. I know she's treated you like absolute shit for over a year. And if you wanted to be friends with her again, I realize it's not my place to question that, but I'm honestly really offended that you chose giving ---- a kick out of pissing ---- and I off over your friendship with ------ and I. The part I don't understand is that I KNOW you knew what would happen, there is no way this was a mistake or a misunderstanding or you thought it would be ok with us or something. It wasn't an accident, it was obviously done with a malicious intent.
With the risk of sounding cliche...I thought we were friends.
I'm really sad this happened and I don't even need you to reply to this if you don't want to, I just wanted to tell you where I am.
Take this is as you may, I'm not begging for an apology or anything because I don't even know if that would cut it anymore, but I'm sorry it happened because I really liked being friends with you. But I obviously valued our friendship more than you did.
Post highschool bullshit is almost hilarious in its completely self absorbed view of life.
I think that if I could choose between sleeping through all the stupid and cruel things I did in the past and sleep through now, I would choose now. If only so I could shut off the buzzing in my ear telling me that your just a pawn. Self destruction or an iron curtain is the only way to keep from going down. Fly the nest into the sea and become another brick in the proverbial wall.