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Change. Growth. Flip side. Whatever you want to call it, I am living it. I have always been one to fully submerge myself into whatever caught my eye for the moment. At different times I believed in different truths.
Be it, VIVRATION OF LOVE IN THE COSMIC CONSCIOUSNESS VS LOVE OF GOD TO HIS CHILDREN, HIS CREATION, I have absorbed it all. At one point the predessor was what I believed in as I came to a greater understanding of my own spirituality while exploring often people, tarot cards, life experiences and astrology. A higher power always existed for me. For any great art, there is an artist. And sometimes the further I fell in pain, the more love was explained. This I thought was being in contol, understanding action reaction, karma, how giving gets you things, creation in mind then manifestation. And then their was meditaiton and all the new heights in perception, and enlightenment it gave me. Learninging through realtionships how to understand and be understood, and truly be yourself.
Then the latter of the VS', a name, a spirit, a holy book, someone who walked this planet as the son of God. Jesus Christ. And giving my life up to him, allowing him control as I give thought and focus to him, my creator who has a plan for me. Shall I listen, shall I follow, I always wanted to be a leader. We are going somehwere as planet, the trumpets are blarring. And to feel this since so young, not provoked by CNN, media, but my everyday waking life glimpses at truths, as the Bible says, prophecies. I need to know my creator not as a vibration but by name, Yawey, and to be God made man in his image, follow. Listen, pray, listen follow.
The thng about me being where I am at now, and being so submerged into Christianity, is again, what I have always gone on, faith. Believe.
Most intellects do not believe in God, but fear still remains. Just the same.
Fear God, not life. And in all the sins and games, and roles, and tales, and tribulations and goals this player has played, the greatest high I walk away with -is my soul deeply engrained by each. And as I evolve to have my wings and not look back, only ahead eye on the prize, how living right with God is engrained enough to know that when it all goes down, I be ok.
Warning: I am not writing this to be righteously religious, I am humbly proclaiming my salvation which is my journey, merly captured in a journal entry this day.
ps. Me and Justin are okay again, just learnt new boundaries the hard way :)
pps. Day two on the patch. ;)
Be it, VIVRATION OF LOVE IN THE COSMIC CONSCIOUSNESS VS LOVE OF GOD TO HIS CHILDREN, HIS CREATION, I have absorbed it all. At one point the predessor was what I believed in as I came to a greater understanding of my own spirituality while exploring often people, tarot cards, life experiences and astrology. A higher power always existed for me. For any great art, there is an artist. And sometimes the further I fell in pain, the more love was explained. This I thought was being in contol, understanding action reaction, karma, how giving gets you things, creation in mind then manifestation. And then their was meditaiton and all the new heights in perception, and enlightenment it gave me. Learninging through realtionships how to understand and be understood, and truly be yourself.
Then the latter of the VS', a name, a spirit, a holy book, someone who walked this planet as the son of God. Jesus Christ. And giving my life up to him, allowing him control as I give thought and focus to him, my creator who has a plan for me. Shall I listen, shall I follow, I always wanted to be a leader. We are going somehwere as planet, the trumpets are blarring. And to feel this since so young, not provoked by CNN, media, but my everyday waking life glimpses at truths, as the Bible says, prophecies. I need to know my creator not as a vibration but by name, Yawey, and to be God made man in his image, follow. Listen, pray, listen follow.
The thng about me being where I am at now, and being so submerged into Christianity, is again, what I have always gone on, faith. Believe.
Most intellects do not believe in God, but fear still remains. Just the same.
Fear God, not life. And in all the sins and games, and roles, and tales, and tribulations and goals this player has played, the greatest high I walk away with -is my soul deeply engrained by each. And as I evolve to have my wings and not look back, only ahead eye on the prize, how living right with God is engrained enough to know that when it all goes down, I be ok.
Warning: I am not writing this to be righteously religious, I am humbly proclaiming my salvation which is my journey, merly captured in a journal entry this day.
ps. Me and Justin are okay again, just learnt new boundaries the hard way :)
pps. Day two on the patch. ;)