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I really need to learn how to open up and stop being so uncomfortable with myself. Last night I hung out with this really awesome guy and I am really diggin' him, and it was like a struggle for me to be comfortable just cuddling with him. I really wanted to be more open but I kept thinking like, "oh my god what if THIS is wrong with me" or something like that. It is actually really retarded because I'm not 13 anymore, haha. I guess my issue is that I really do have to be super comfortable with the person and then also push myself a little bit out of my comfort zone.
Like, I got so nervous at the end of the night when I was thinking about how to kiss him, but I didn't end up doing it because I got anxious. It isn't that big of a deal but I just don't want to come off as uninterested at all. And this is the sort of thing that kills new potentially romantic relationships if I just sit someone down and explain to them why my brain still acts like I am in seventh grade.
Also I forgot what it was like to like someone like this (that's three "likes" in one sentence, sadly). It is really scary, hahaha.
In OTHER news, I am now working with Clark's nutcrackers in the lab at a super secret, confidential, undisclosed location. Hahhaha. No really, right now the research project hasn't even begun yet. I just have to feed six nutcrackers and weigh four of them. Then the training shall begin. I have to train four nutcrackers (in two pairs) to do a certain behavior or set of behaviors that will pertain to an experiment that will test their ability to distinguish very similar images to see how keen their visual acuity is. I am really psyched because I want to have more formal experience training animals because that will put me into a better place when applying for all these jobs, and also the birds are AWESOME and I really love animal training.
That is essentially all that is going on right now. I have to finish cleaning my room, eat a little something, start some laundry, then head off to the gym and the bird place. WHEEEEEEE. I sort of hope I get to see that guy tonight but we'll see!
Like, I got so nervous at the end of the night when I was thinking about how to kiss him, but I didn't end up doing it because I got anxious. It isn't that big of a deal but I just don't want to come off as uninterested at all. And this is the sort of thing that kills new potentially romantic relationships if I just sit someone down and explain to them why my brain still acts like I am in seventh grade.
Also I forgot what it was like to like someone like this (that's three "likes" in one sentence, sadly). It is really scary, hahaha.
In OTHER news, I am now working with Clark's nutcrackers in the lab at a super secret, confidential, undisclosed location. Hahhaha. No really, right now the research project hasn't even begun yet. I just have to feed six nutcrackers and weigh four of them. Then the training shall begin. I have to train four nutcrackers (in two pairs) to do a certain behavior or set of behaviors that will pertain to an experiment that will test their ability to distinguish very similar images to see how keen their visual acuity is. I am really psyched because I want to have more formal experience training animals because that will put me into a better place when applying for all these jobs, and also the birds are AWESOME and I really love animal training.
That is essentially all that is going on right now. I have to finish cleaning my room, eat a little something, start some laundry, then head off to the gym and the bird place. WHEEEEEEE. I sort of hope I get to see that guy tonight but we'll see!