Update
So much has happened to me in the past few years I can't even begin to explain. Some incredibly bad, life changing things have happened. At times the despair and depression I felt almost completely consumed me. Luckily, just in the nick of time, some incredibly good, life affirming things happened to redress the balance. Life is like that I guess, ups and downs. Nothing to get too worked up about. Over the years I've developed a stoic, unnatural resiliency to just about everything. Throw it at me, I will cope. Today I feel bullet-proof. Of course, along with this stoicism comes a quiet reflection and deeply personal and private ways of dealing with everything. As such, I feel no need to seek sympathy or reaction or opinion from anybody and certainly no need to write a livejournal post, regurgitating the past. Generally speaking I don't need people in my life. Just a select few.
So I'm not here to talk about the bad things. Let's focus on the positive, right?
Recently I felt like I achieved a financial milestone. When I was 17 or 18 I remember that milestone being to have over £500 in my bank account. It was kind of a big deal at the time, I'd never had that much money in my account before.
I now have considerably more. It wasn't given to me or won and throughout most I've my life I've had little to no income. I don't work for anybody, I'm not in any way conventional. I don't have a traditional 9-5 job and have only tried that a few times in the past (did not like it) I don't wake up early and join the rat-race. It's just not my path in life.
I find it a little crass talking about money and it makes me feel a little uncomfortable. Therefore I won't disclose my current bank account balance, but I have new goals, new milestones to achieve because it's not enough. Not enough to be able to live my life how I want. So I'm still working on it. I'm debt free, I have no credit cards and no desire to have them ever again.
Of course happiness cannot be found in financial gain, this isn't a realisation, it's no big surprise to me. I've known that all along and it's why I've never pursued it for those reasons. But it can certainly make things easier and life that little bit more enjoyable.
So I'm not here to talk about the bad things. Let's focus on the positive, right?
Recently I felt like I achieved a financial milestone. When I was 17 or 18 I remember that milestone being to have over £500 in my bank account. It was kind of a big deal at the time, I'd never had that much money in my account before.
I now have considerably more. It wasn't given to me or won and throughout most I've my life I've had little to no income. I don't work for anybody, I'm not in any way conventional. I don't have a traditional 9-5 job and have only tried that a few times in the past (did not like it) I don't wake up early and join the rat-race. It's just not my path in life.
I find it a little crass talking about money and it makes me feel a little uncomfortable. Therefore I won't disclose my current bank account balance, but I have new goals, new milestones to achieve because it's not enough. Not enough to be able to live my life how I want. So I'm still working on it. I'm debt free, I have no credit cards and no desire to have them ever again.
Of course happiness cannot be found in financial gain, this isn't a realisation, it's no big surprise to me. I've known that all along and it's why I've never pursued it for those reasons. But it can certainly make things easier and life that little bit more enjoyable.