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wow... i really can't do anything right. todays shitty as hell. it really shouldn't be, but it definantly is.
the kids at school really annoy the hell out of me. im sure i annoy the hell out of them too, but i guess i don't care.
i've come to the final conslusion that im not gonna travel for about a year after i get out of school. i'm gonna be doing this program in israel, where i volunteer on a kibbutz. should be a good break from things, slower transition into my freedom. im antsy to move on with my life, i don't know how much longer i can stand this high school.
im really scared about things to come. my nerves are shot, and all the nicotine in the world isn't helping me right now. worste of all, i don't know who to talk to about this.
my recovery was a lot easier before we started those meetings again. now all i can think about most of the time is drugs.
i think everyone is starting to really hate me, either that or really resent my friendship.