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wow... sometimes i confuse myself so much. i just don't understand what pissed me off so much tonight. i was having a great time. and then my dad comes up, while im already pissed off (over nothing) and starts telling me to enroll at oakland U. he knows that there is no way im going strait off to college. but then it hits me, that i know almost nothing about my life to come. and i hate having to think about that, because i kinda want it to ... just... happen.
not just happen, but the way it should be is my "time off" time to let things just flow, have a good time, and take a lot of experience with me while im on the road.
o well. i don't know why im making a big deal over this, i just feel like im being forced to leave everything behind, the odd part is that im the one forcing myself into this. i know i want it, i just don't know that im ready to start everything over in a completely new way.
a year from today i could be off on my way. thats just a bit mind boggling.
i dont wanna sleep tonight, but i know im gonna pass out in like a half hour, and i know im gonna have many fucked up dreams.
not just happen, but the way it should be is my "time off" time to let things just flow, have a good time, and take a lot of experience with me while im on the road.
o well. i don't know why im making a big deal over this, i just feel like im being forced to leave everything behind, the odd part is that im the one forcing myself into this. i know i want it, i just don't know that im ready to start everything over in a completely new way.
a year from today i could be off on my way. thats just a bit mind boggling.
i dont wanna sleep tonight, but i know im gonna pass out in like a half hour, and i know im gonna have many fucked up dreams.