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So basically here i am again, writing my thoughts down on some stupid journal of mine, that I'm hoping won't incrimidate me in some way. I can't write on my myspace anymore b/c he is there and her too. so basically my life has been turned upside down in the past couple of weeks basically everything that could go wrong, has happened. I had to leave

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First and foremost- very sorry to hear about your Grandfather. its tragic to lose a family member. Family are the only ones you can count on, and they will never abandon you.

you'll get past this, of course you will, because you are Kim Boone, you are your own person, and no one else defines who you are, no matter how long you've been with them or how much hope you put into them. it's going to hurt, of course when you have your feet swept out from underneath you. but you'll learn to stand on your own two feet again.

if i havent told you before, im sorry, but you put too much of yourself into relationships. i used to do the same thing i think. everyone grows up with expectations of love based on movies and love songs; no one knows how to be alone. you have to love yourself before you can love anyone else, and when you reach that point only you have control over your emotions, and Joe Shmoe can't bring you down.

i know you aren't going to read this and be magically cured, but give it a chance. next time your mind is swimming with melancholy thoughts of greg, ask yourself why he deserves your tears, and why you deserve to feel like shit. eventually you'll come to think of this as an opportunity to concentrate on whats truly important at this point in your life, and its not going to be a boy. and not all guys are evil...i mean i'm not such a bad guy right?

and definately be careful about partying. not all guys are bad, but at a party you have to be on the defensive, and thats a sad truth. drinking is fun but you have to examine the reasoning. the first time we broke up i went out to a party and got high and felt like shit for doing so.

but don't worry, youll get through, give me a call if you need to, the numbers still the same.

-Matt

thanks

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thanks, I wish it was as easy to forget as it is to fall in love.
~Kim~