I hate the thought of you ...

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I don't understand why everytime, I open my heart up, someone tears it apart. Well, you guessed it John and I are fighting. He says I talk about things with other people to much, and that if I want to say something to him I should say it to his face!However, I had to hear from Brittany Die, that he said to tell me he never liked me he just wanted to have sex, of corse he denied it, but i mean seriously why the hell would Brit lie to me about something like that. He is such a freaking drama queen he turns everything I say around on me, and I just don't want to have to deal with it, in the past few days I think I've cried a whole freaken river. Not so much because I'm upset about John, because I don't like him that much, it is just that every guy I ever talk screws me over! I mean is there something wrong with me? I mean I'm never the right thing and I don't know why. He is all mad because people are asking him questions about me and him, and duh, fucking dumb ass, when you announce to the class that you like them, people are gonna find out! Sorry that I know alot of people, and they find out things about me. I'm not goingt to sit back and let you call me a bitch and let you fuck me over! I just don't want to have to deal with this drama, I mean gosh, sorry you don't believe me when I say I didn't say that, but I on the other hand am supposed to believe you. Why the hell am I supposed to be honest to you, when you told everyone that your not going to be honest tome. I wish i never would have got involved with you, I have enough shit in my life without a guy screwing me over everyime, I let down my gaurd. I mean, what the hell is wrong with me, please some one tell me, I'm like a freaking ass hole magnet for guys, I mean there is Adam, and ..... and ....... and now this fagit. Whatever, I'm really tired of getting hurt! And then after he got done yelling at me, he goes can I call you, what the fuck is that I mean ......?
I don't know I'm so confused the only guy I can trust is Jacob.

well g2g
bye
~kim~