without my friends i am nothing..
without my friends i am nothing.. seriously...
this weekend was a complete SHAM! sucked i didnt do anything fun... and i didnt hang out with my "real friends"
but i guess they arent my "real friends" cause "real friends" wouldnt ditch me...
i'd like to think im not over reacting...
maybe its childhood trama.. but i was always the last to get picked for gay foot ball and stuff like that
i always hung out with older kids and i used to be the one they always would leave somewhere or dicth somehow
thus explaining my fear of being alone... + my awesome father... prob adds to that fear...
heh.. fuck this feeling in my chest.. thats for sure... i feel like when i found out i got cheated on in 1 of my awesome relationships
really tho *gay* my heart is completely broken *gay* i love my friends more then anything in this shitty world... why would they leave me behind...
ps i hung out with julia and kate and saw elizabethtown.. highlight of my week/weekend at least some friends are there for me....
<3 JH KD
im going to cali to see jess fee cause she is amazing and invited me left... ha get it left like up but not....
so santa cruze on the 1st till 6th of nov yea son i plan on relaxation to the mizax / .....HEHE.....
also shayna desided it would be cool to text me wicked queer messages about how i should kill myself and cool stuff like that...
and then she tells me my last live journal entry was gay... HAHAHAHAHAHAH that girl is retarded.... your retarded...
when your reading this shayna ::::::::::::: IM A FUCKING PIRATE... hahahha you just said it! ya you suck
who cares get over yourself move on! MOVE ON!
i think i am going to have a new out look on life... its gonna be hard to get over MYself and just do it but i want to alot...
i wanna just not care.. and NOT love my friends as much as i do but as much as They love me.. cause there are alot that really dont care about me... cough josh... he doesnt really care... were close but i would really....i would HAVE... killed someone/let someone kill me for him with out even thinking about it... anything... i would have cut off my leg if he asked me to....
why? not like he would even invite me out on the weekend... so go ahead and screw my .. whatever she is ill say EX cause thats a whole diffrent entry.. haha ya i said it... and ya i know you are....
haha o live journal how i <3 you
this weekend was a complete SHAM! sucked i didnt do anything fun... and i didnt hang out with my "real friends"
but i guess they arent my "real friends" cause "real friends" wouldnt ditch me...
i'd like to think im not over reacting...
maybe its childhood trama.. but i was always the last to get picked for gay foot ball and stuff like that
i always hung out with older kids and i used to be the one they always would leave somewhere or dicth somehow
thus explaining my fear of being alone... + my awesome father... prob adds to that fear...
heh.. fuck this feeling in my chest.. thats for sure... i feel like when i found out i got cheated on in 1 of my awesome relationships
really tho *gay* my heart is completely broken *gay* i love my friends more then anything in this shitty world... why would they leave me behind...
ps i hung out with julia and kate and saw elizabethtown.. highlight of my week/weekend at least some friends are there for me....
<3 JH KD
im going to cali to see jess fee cause she is amazing and invited me left... ha get it left like up but not....
so santa cruze on the 1st till 6th of nov yea son i plan on relaxation to the mizax / .....HEHE.....
also shayna desided it would be cool to text me wicked queer messages about how i should kill myself and cool stuff like that...
and then she tells me my last live journal entry was gay... HAHAHAHAHAHAH that girl is retarded.... your retarded...
when your reading this shayna ::::::::::::: IM A FUCKING PIRATE... hahahha you just said it! ya you suck
who cares get over yourself move on! MOVE ON!
i think i am going to have a new out look on life... its gonna be hard to get over MYself and just do it but i want to alot...
i wanna just not care.. and NOT love my friends as much as i do but as much as They love me.. cause there are alot that really dont care about me... cough josh... he doesnt really care... were close but i would really....i would HAVE... killed someone/let someone kill me for him with out even thinking about it... anything... i would have cut off my leg if he asked me to....
why? not like he would even invite me out on the weekend... so go ahead and screw my .. whatever she is ill say EX cause thats a whole diffrent entry.. haha ya i said it... and ya i know you are....
haha o live journal how i <3 you