Until We Say Goodbye
Tittle: Until We Say Goodbye
Author: funf_gay_otoko
Length: 1,570 words
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: PG
Genre: AU, romance, angst
Disclaimer: I only own the doll version of Kaibutsu-kun and Aiba-chan.
Summary: Jun is ready to hear the words from the other man.
Warning(s): Un-betaed.
Notes: I was ready to close my eyes when suddenly, BAM, this plot came out of nowhere. So I woke up and wrote this in the middle of the night. I’m also looking for beta. If anyone willing to test their patience with me and put up with me even though I’m hard to deal with, just PM me. Please comment for any critics or suggestion :)
Perhaps this is the time for them, he is sure of it. It has been this way for some time now that Jun even surprised that just now it happens.
With their busy schedule in their own works, even though they work in the same place, it has been hard for them just to contact each other, even just texting. And now after a month not seeing each other, Jun is prepared for the heart-breaking goodbye.
This does not mean that he does not love Sho though. It is the other way around actually. He loves the older man very much that it could be considered as unhealthy. Sho is the only person that had seen Jun cried. Sho also the only one who knows how to deal with Jun temper which Jun himself did not know how to deal it with. Sho is his sole weakness, but also his ultimate strength. He easily broke the wall that Jun had put up to prevent him from falling in love. He turned his world upside down with his infectious laughter, his horrible cooking, his morning coffee, his habit of reading english newspaper, his stuffed cheek when he was eating Jun’s pasta, his... everything.
He met him on the first day of his internship. Jun was still a gangly boy who was just graduated from a culinary school in Italia and just got a job at one of the best hotel in Tokyo. On his first day as the assistant of the Soup and Sauce Cook, he almost got himself fired because he poured the wrong ingredients to the stir fry sauce that he was working on. And the soup was already delivered to the table when Jun realized his mistake. And on that table was Sakurai Yusuke, the owner of the Amnos Hotel where he works at, celebrating his first son graduation from Toudai. The Head Chef, Sakamoto, was furious and ready to slaughter Jun with the knife on his right hand. But he was saved by a waiter who came in and told Jun to go to table nine.
Jun was glad that he could avoid Sakamoto’s wrath. But after he walked out from the kitchen, he then realized that table nine situated in the VIP area, which mean he was doomed. He was mentally preparing his words of apologize while walked to the table of the doom and even ready to go down kneeling if his words was dismissed. But when he got there, he instead received praise from Sakurai Yusuke and his son for his apparently delicious soup. His son seemed genuinely happy with his food and thanked him with his charming smile. Jun’s heart skipped a beat at that (and also the fact that Sho, the man latter introduced himself, was very handsome and the Armani suit fitted him nicely.)
After that, things just escalated from there. At first, Jun refused to acknowledge his own attraction toward the CEO’s son. He drowned himself in his works just to make his mind forget Sakurai Sho’s genuine smile when he first met him. He did not want to experience that awful feeling of falling in love with someone, only to be left alone or rejected in the end. Even though he told himself that, Jun could not help but feeling something was amiss when Sho did not sit in his usual seat near the kitchen when he had dinner, or when Jun did not receive his weird yet endearing SMS in which Sho described his days as the Hotel General Manager at the end of his shifts.
For two years he denied the fact that he had a certain feeling that he refused to say out loud to Sho, and the latter also had the same feeling towards him. The different thing was, Sho could say it out loud to Jun and did not give up. Jun always found a rose bouquet with a golden card that says simply ‘To J’ at the end of his shifts. Ninomiya, the Head Cashier, always teased him about this and said “Just fuck him already” while he hit the buttons of his Nintendo DS mercilessly.
Jun gave up and let his walls fall down at the New Years Eve party. Jun could not stand the itch to be with Sho any longer and decided to just man up. He kissed him in the party in front of every staff and the hotel’s directors, including Sakurai Yusuke. Sho just laughed and said ‘finally’ before he kissed Jun back passionately and everyone, including Sakurai Yusuke, cheered.
That was five years ago, and yet it still feels like yesterday. After five years of being together, all the memories, the kisses, the late night hugging under blanket, the fights, sure had left inside Jun and won’t go away easily. Now that Jun is the Head Chef after ten years of sweating and bleeding in the kitchen, he is assuring himself that he still have his job and his friends if his dinner date tonight turns out to be his last chance of seeing Sho as his lover. Besides, they are already busy with works, so the chance of seeing Sho after they break things off with each other will be very slim. Even if Sho fires him because he is now the hotel’s CEO, he still has tons of position offers from other hotels
.
The walk to table nine (it is rather ironic) feels like forever for Jun. He feels like the first time he walked to that table, very anxious but ready with whatever consequence that he would deal with later. He takes a deep breath before he sits across Sho who is already there.
There is already a bottle of Moet et Chandon in the table. Sho pours the wine to their glasses before he toast his glass to Jun’s. After that, they are quiet for some time. Jun uses the chance to really take a look at Sho after not a month not seeing each other, even though they live together. Sho is definetly thinner and his cheekbones are visible. He has dark circles around his eyes and his face is rather pale under the light.
The one who speaks first is Sho.
“Jun, I’m sorry that we haven’t seeing each other for a month.” Jun visibly winches at the tone that Sho uses. He only hears that tone when Sho fired someone over the phone. Jun opts to be quiet and braces himself for the goodbye that will come.
“… works is crazy and I can’t really wait anymore before it gets in the way…” Sho rambles on and on but Jun won’t hear the rest. Sho’s hand is reaching his on the table and holds him.
“I know this might not be the right time, but Jun, I…” Sho stopped suddenly and grips his hand more tightly.
“Just say it, I know this will happen anyway.” Jun spats. He cannot help the way it sounds rather harsh, because that is exactly the way he wanted it to sounded like.
“You know?” Sho sounds hopeful for a moment, and Jun hates it and misses it at the same
“Yeah I know for some time. I’ve heard it from some hotel staffs that for this past month you always had some women went into your office.” Jun said before calmly sipping his wine.
“What? But that’s not…”
“Just because I’m always in the kitchen does not make me deaf and blind to the world outside, Sakurai.” Jun curled his left fist and he forcefully tried to free his right hand.
Jun is already standing up and ready to leave the table before Sho caught his wrist and make him sit again. Jun is frustrated.
“What do you want? Just say it already. Just say that you are already bored with me. Just say that you don’t want me in your bed from now on. Just say that… you don’t love me anymore. Just say the damn words and I will pack my things tonight and move out tomorrow.” Jun said with glassy eyes. Damn, he already decided not to cry tonight but his body is betraying him.
“You don’t have to pack your things tonight,” Sho said while still gripping his wrist firmly, “because I want them to always be there when I got home for the rest of my life.”
“Wha… what are you saying?” Jun’s voice is already wavered and he is fighting back the tears that are threatening to spill from his eyes.
“Matsumoto Jun, will you do the honor spending the rest of your life with me, despites my horrible cooking, my dragon morning breath, my occasionally horrible taste in fashion, and basically all of me?” Sho said while pulling out a blue velvet box. He opens it, and there is a platinum ring with nine small diamonds.
“Will you marry me?” Sho said more firmly this time, and he looks deeply into Jun’s eyes. Jun is momentarily speechless.
“I… I… Oh Sho, damn you, I thought…” He does not know what to say, so he decides to just kiss him, very hard. Sho just laughs, and Jun is falling in love all over again.
“You idiot, I am already spending the rest of my life with you.” He kisses him, again, because he cannot say exactly how he is feeling right now. But he does not mind, really.
End Notes: The women were the kitchen staffs who works under Jun. Sho merely asked them how to propose to Jun. All of them said that no matter how Sho proposed to Jun, he will say yes because he loves the Sho too much that Jun gave the kitchen staffs diabetes by how sweetly and lovingly he talks about Sho in the kitchen sometimes (Jun would not admit it though).
Author: funf_gay_otoko
Length: 1,570 words
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: PG
Genre: AU, romance, angst
Disclaimer: I only own the doll version of Kaibutsu-kun and Aiba-chan.
Summary: Jun is ready to hear the words from the other man.
Warning(s): Un-betaed.
Notes: I was ready to close my eyes when suddenly, BAM, this plot came out of nowhere. So I woke up and wrote this in the middle of the night. I’m also looking for beta. If anyone willing to test their patience with me and put up with me even though I’m hard to deal with, just PM me. Please comment for any critics or suggestion :)
Perhaps this is the time for them, he is sure of it. It has been this way for some time now that Jun even surprised that just now it happens.
With their busy schedule in their own works, even though they work in the same place, it has been hard for them just to contact each other, even just texting. And now after a month not seeing each other, Jun is prepared for the heart-breaking goodbye.
This does not mean that he does not love Sho though. It is the other way around actually. He loves the older man very much that it could be considered as unhealthy. Sho is the only person that had seen Jun cried. Sho also the only one who knows how to deal with Jun temper which Jun himself did not know how to deal it with. Sho is his sole weakness, but also his ultimate strength. He easily broke the wall that Jun had put up to prevent him from falling in love. He turned his world upside down with his infectious laughter, his horrible cooking, his morning coffee, his habit of reading english newspaper, his stuffed cheek when he was eating Jun’s pasta, his... everything.
He met him on the first day of his internship. Jun was still a gangly boy who was just graduated from a culinary school in Italia and just got a job at one of the best hotel in Tokyo. On his first day as the assistant of the Soup and Sauce Cook, he almost got himself fired because he poured the wrong ingredients to the stir fry sauce that he was working on. And the soup was already delivered to the table when Jun realized his mistake. And on that table was Sakurai Yusuke, the owner of the Amnos Hotel where he works at, celebrating his first son graduation from Toudai. The Head Chef, Sakamoto, was furious and ready to slaughter Jun with the knife on his right hand. But he was saved by a waiter who came in and told Jun to go to table nine.
Jun was glad that he could avoid Sakamoto’s wrath. But after he walked out from the kitchen, he then realized that table nine situated in the VIP area, which mean he was doomed. He was mentally preparing his words of apologize while walked to the table of the doom and even ready to go down kneeling if his words was dismissed. But when he got there, he instead received praise from Sakurai Yusuke and his son for his apparently delicious soup. His son seemed genuinely happy with his food and thanked him with his charming smile. Jun’s heart skipped a beat at that (and also the fact that Sho, the man latter introduced himself, was very handsome and the Armani suit fitted him nicely.)
After that, things just escalated from there. At first, Jun refused to acknowledge his own attraction toward the CEO’s son. He drowned himself in his works just to make his mind forget Sakurai Sho’s genuine smile when he first met him. He did not want to experience that awful feeling of falling in love with someone, only to be left alone or rejected in the end. Even though he told himself that, Jun could not help but feeling something was amiss when Sho did not sit in his usual seat near the kitchen when he had dinner, or when Jun did not receive his weird yet endearing SMS in which Sho described his days as the Hotel General Manager at the end of his shifts.
For two years he denied the fact that he had a certain feeling that he refused to say out loud to Sho, and the latter also had the same feeling towards him. The different thing was, Sho could say it out loud to Jun and did not give up. Jun always found a rose bouquet with a golden card that says simply ‘To J’ at the end of his shifts. Ninomiya, the Head Cashier, always teased him about this and said “Just fuck him already” while he hit the buttons of his Nintendo DS mercilessly.
Jun gave up and let his walls fall down at the New Years Eve party. Jun could not stand the itch to be with Sho any longer and decided to just man up. He kissed him in the party in front of every staff and the hotel’s directors, including Sakurai Yusuke. Sho just laughed and said ‘finally’ before he kissed Jun back passionately and everyone, including Sakurai Yusuke, cheered.
That was five years ago, and yet it still feels like yesterday. After five years of being together, all the memories, the kisses, the late night hugging under blanket, the fights, sure had left inside Jun and won’t go away easily. Now that Jun is the Head Chef after ten years of sweating and bleeding in the kitchen, he is assuring himself that he still have his job and his friends if his dinner date tonight turns out to be his last chance of seeing Sho as his lover. Besides, they are already busy with works, so the chance of seeing Sho after they break things off with each other will be very slim. Even if Sho fires him because he is now the hotel’s CEO, he still has tons of position offers from other hotels
.
The walk to table nine (it is rather ironic) feels like forever for Jun. He feels like the first time he walked to that table, very anxious but ready with whatever consequence that he would deal with later. He takes a deep breath before he sits across Sho who is already there.
There is already a bottle of Moet et Chandon in the table. Sho pours the wine to their glasses before he toast his glass to Jun’s. After that, they are quiet for some time. Jun uses the chance to really take a look at Sho after not a month not seeing each other, even though they live together. Sho is definetly thinner and his cheekbones are visible. He has dark circles around his eyes and his face is rather pale under the light.
The one who speaks first is Sho.
“Jun, I’m sorry that we haven’t seeing each other for a month.” Jun visibly winches at the tone that Sho uses. He only hears that tone when Sho fired someone over the phone. Jun opts to be quiet and braces himself for the goodbye that will come.
“… works is crazy and I can’t really wait anymore before it gets in the way…” Sho rambles on and on but Jun won’t hear the rest. Sho’s hand is reaching his on the table and holds him.
“I know this might not be the right time, but Jun, I…” Sho stopped suddenly and grips his hand more tightly.
“Just say it, I know this will happen anyway.” Jun spats. He cannot help the way it sounds rather harsh, because that is exactly the way he wanted it to sounded like.
“You know?” Sho sounds hopeful for a moment, and Jun hates it and misses it at the same
“Yeah I know for some time. I’ve heard it from some hotel staffs that for this past month you always had some women went into your office.” Jun said before calmly sipping his wine.
“What? But that’s not…”
“Just because I’m always in the kitchen does not make me deaf and blind to the world outside, Sakurai.” Jun curled his left fist and he forcefully tried to free his right hand.
Jun is already standing up and ready to leave the table before Sho caught his wrist and make him sit again. Jun is frustrated.
“What do you want? Just say it already. Just say that you are already bored with me. Just say that you don’t want me in your bed from now on. Just say that… you don’t love me anymore. Just say the damn words and I will pack my things tonight and move out tomorrow.” Jun said with glassy eyes. Damn, he already decided not to cry tonight but his body is betraying him.
“You don’t have to pack your things tonight,” Sho said while still gripping his wrist firmly, “because I want them to always be there when I got home for the rest of my life.”
“Wha… what are you saying?” Jun’s voice is already wavered and he is fighting back the tears that are threatening to spill from his eyes.
“Matsumoto Jun, will you do the honor spending the rest of your life with me, despites my horrible cooking, my dragon morning breath, my occasionally horrible taste in fashion, and basically all of me?” Sho said while pulling out a blue velvet box. He opens it, and there is a platinum ring with nine small diamonds.
“Will you marry me?” Sho said more firmly this time, and he looks deeply into Jun’s eyes. Jun is momentarily speechless.
“I… I… Oh Sho, damn you, I thought…” He does not know what to say, so he decides to just kiss him, very hard. Sho just laughs, and Jun is falling in love all over again.
“You idiot, I am already spending the rest of my life with you.” He kisses him, again, because he cannot say exactly how he is feeling right now. But he does not mind, really.
End Notes: The women were the kitchen staffs who works under Jun. Sho merely asked them how to propose to Jun. All of them said that no matter how Sho proposed to Jun, he will say yes because he loves the Sho too much that Jun gave the kitchen staffs diabetes by how sweetly and lovingly he talks about Sho in the kitchen sometimes (Jun would not admit it though).