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I applied for a part-time job at the South Lansing Library. They pay $11.08/h, and their requirements is to have a highschool diploma and be able to speak a second language. I am fluent in two, besides English, Arabic and French. I so badly want this job because if I do indeed get it, I would be able to go to Lebanon next summer. The thought of it just excites the hell out of me, and if they don't hire me, than something is really wrong with those people. I'm getting the job. I will get it. I will bomb their asses if I don't!
Anyway, I keep drinking coffee but it has no effect on me. I don't want to sleep, I hate sleeping. I have 2 Algebra homeworks I need to get done, I need to take the test too. I have another homework for CITP 110 due on Tuesday; I think I will work on it tomorrow.
Design & Communication is very easy so far. Drawing is, too.
I was tempted to rent The Passion of the Christ last time, so I did. Have-sympathy-for-Jesus but nice special effects. Satan is always an attractive women. Mel Gibson knew well how to work on the mutant kids! *wonders who the weird people really are in the end*
I'm thinking of calling her tomorrow. I still miss her so very much, but tomorrow might be the end of it. I am stuck between emotions that keep changing towards her. Sometimes I miss her, sometimes I mistrust everything she told me, and sometimes I just wanna forget I ever met her. I don't know if I should end this friendship now, because I wanna keep hoping.. but this hope is getting me nowhere besides utter sadness. It's such a hard decision, because I don't want to fuck up something I might not be understanding yet. I want to keep things as they are and surprise her when I go to Lebanon for a visit, but than again all the thoughts hurt me more. I'm so sick of those feelings that I just want them to vanish. She is beautiful in every means, it's so hard to let go someone you could rarely find.
Anyway, I keep drinking coffee but it has no effect on me. I don't want to sleep, I hate sleeping. I have 2 Algebra homeworks I need to get done, I need to take the test too. I have another homework for CITP 110 due on Tuesday; I think I will work on it tomorrow.
Design & Communication is very easy so far. Drawing is, too.
I was tempted to rent The Passion of the Christ last time, so I did. Have-sympathy-for-Jesus but nice special effects. Satan is always an attractive women. Mel Gibson knew well how to work on the mutant kids! *wonders who the weird people really are in the end*
I'm thinking of calling her tomorrow. I still miss her so very much, but tomorrow might be the end of it. I am stuck between emotions that keep changing towards her. Sometimes I miss her, sometimes I mistrust everything she told me, and sometimes I just wanna forget I ever met her. I don't know if I should end this friendship now, because I wanna keep hoping.. but this hope is getting me nowhere besides utter sadness. It's such a hard decision, because I don't want to fuck up something I might not be understanding yet. I want to keep things as they are and surprise her when I go to Lebanon for a visit, but than again all the thoughts hurt me more. I'm so sick of those feelings that I just want them to vanish. She is beautiful in every means, it's so hard to let go someone you could rarely find.