in which he actually updates his journal.
I had 3 different dreams last night, but the more I think about them, the more I see the underlying theme of them all. Each dream involved something broken, but under construction - a waterslide, a warehouse, a road. Each had someone angry with me - a lifeguard, an ex-girlfriend, and myself. In each dream I got lost, and was helped back on track by someone - my old friend Julie, my sister, and a co-worker.
I'm curious as to what this means, but I think I can figure most of it out. I'm trying to make myself better - healthier, more financially stable, etc. - hence the construction. I'm still frightened and anxious about the uncertainty of my future, but I know there are people in my life to provide support and encouragement when I fall face first back into the gutter.
So come on, dreams. Give me something a little crazier.
I miss the crazy ones.
In the really real world, not a whole lot going on. I'm still working toward becoming a teacher - which is becoming a real possibilty, surprisingly. I'll let you know how it goes. I'm reading more. I finished the Hunger Games trilogy - just like 90 percent of the country, but I won't spoil it for anyone. I'm currently reading a few different books. Almost finished re-reading the Dark Tower series for the 3rd time. Working on the Time Traveler's Wife for the first time - it's actually a lot better than I expected. And I'm also reading White Noise by Don DeLillo on suggestion from a beautiful old friend. All of them are entertaining, and I'm finding it fun to juggle books like this.
A handful of people I know keep asking me what's wrong - and I don't know what to tell them because I don't think anything's wrong. I'm sober (for the moment - that wagon's a difficult one to stay up on, but I'm trying), and I'm trying to save money - so I'm declining offers to go out on a more regular basis. Both of which, I suppose, is a significant change in behavior for me...so I reckon I can see how that could indicate something being wrong in the eyes of those who are close to me. But no worries.
My plans for today, you ask? Probably eat some food, write a letter or two, then maybe go catch a flickashow after a spell. Hope your Sunday's going well out there in El Jayland.
I'm curious as to what this means, but I think I can figure most of it out. I'm trying to make myself better - healthier, more financially stable, etc. - hence the construction. I'm still frightened and anxious about the uncertainty of my future, but I know there are people in my life to provide support and encouragement when I fall face first back into the gutter.
So come on, dreams. Give me something a little crazier.
I miss the crazy ones.
In the really real world, not a whole lot going on. I'm still working toward becoming a teacher - which is becoming a real possibilty, surprisingly. I'll let you know how it goes. I'm reading more. I finished the Hunger Games trilogy - just like 90 percent of the country, but I won't spoil it for anyone. I'm currently reading a few different books. Almost finished re-reading the Dark Tower series for the 3rd time. Working on the Time Traveler's Wife for the first time - it's actually a lot better than I expected. And I'm also reading White Noise by Don DeLillo on suggestion from a beautiful old friend. All of them are entertaining, and I'm finding it fun to juggle books like this.
A handful of people I know keep asking me what's wrong - and I don't know what to tell them because I don't think anything's wrong. I'm sober (for the moment - that wagon's a difficult one to stay up on, but I'm trying), and I'm trying to save money - so I'm declining offers to go out on a more regular basis. Both of which, I suppose, is a significant change in behavior for me...so I reckon I can see how that could indicate something being wrong in the eyes of those who are close to me. But no worries.
My plans for today, you ask? Probably eat some food, write a letter or two, then maybe go catch a flickashow after a spell. Hope your Sunday's going well out there in El Jayland.