creativity is...
a void into which you ladle carrot and leek soup and expect a miracle to sprout out.
My creativity avoids me. It's as if I'm expecting something to spontaneously generate out of nothing. Which is why I am wasting time on livejournal. I promised myself to finish all college (summer college) apps by vacation to send them in nice and early. ^^
BUT, there is a big but. I suck at writing personal essays. Maybe because I'm not creative or because I simply don't know or do not wish to exuberantly praise myself, which is what they want.
the fact that those programs are deadly selective and that as smart as I may be, there'll always be some prick out there from a fancy private school who'll have taken ten AP classes by eighth grade and has a google as his SAT score. And while I may be smart (I don't dare say how I compare to my school) , I cannot compete with that. Not all of us are blessed with parents who are willing to accept and facillitate intelligence.
Yes, my academics and my extracurriculars are very strong. Yes, I try my hardest (most of the time). But... I have so much trouble distinguishing myself from the rest. I know I am not like the 'mob'. In fact I avoid the mob instead of going against the way of the mob.
I am peaceful, tranquil. I read, write, cook, run, meditate.
I am myself despite the pressure to feel different.
I've only lived out of Europe for six years.
I have what it takes.
But somehow its too difficult to convey myself on a piece of digitized paper.
And so my creativity avoids me.
.: Peace & Love:.
My creativity avoids me. It's as if I'm expecting something to spontaneously generate out of nothing. Which is why I am wasting time on livejournal. I promised myself to finish all college (summer college) apps by vacation to send them in nice and early. ^^
BUT, there is a big but. I suck at writing personal essays. Maybe because I'm not creative or because I simply don't know or do not wish to exuberantly praise myself, which is what they want.
the fact that those programs are deadly selective and that as smart as I may be, there'll always be some prick out there from a fancy private school who'll have taken ten AP classes by eighth grade and has a google as his SAT score. And while I may be smart (I don't dare say how I compare to my school) , I cannot compete with that. Not all of us are blessed with parents who are willing to accept and facillitate intelligence.
Yes, my academics and my extracurriculars are very strong. Yes, I try my hardest (most of the time). But... I have so much trouble distinguishing myself from the rest. I know I am not like the 'mob'. In fact I avoid the mob instead of going against the way of the mob.
I am peaceful, tranquil. I read, write, cook, run, meditate.
I am myself despite the pressure to feel different.
I've only lived out of Europe for six years.
I have what it takes.
But somehow its too difficult to convey myself on a piece of digitized paper.
And so my creativity avoids me.
.: Peace & Love:.