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I want to quit my job.
It's not like it is anything important. I waitress part-time at a Sushi place (once a week for a 12 hour shift rendering me only $80 for shift, give or take due to tip). But these days I'm growing tired. I'm physically exhausted. I am tired of the owner and his lewd comments (and gross remarks). I'm tired of giving up my Saturdays for the sake of waitressing. I have AP exams to study for and standardized tests. I want to do better in school and I want to strive and to achieve to do more that I am able to now.
And I sound depressive, but that is how I've been feeling lately. Mostly, I am exhausted physically.
This week, I went to my physician. She was angry again. I do not blame her, but her worries are trivial. I lost weight again (after holiday season), but trully, it was nothing major. My BMI is 20.1 which is a perfect weight for my height. Of course I'm like any other girl and I want to have a flatter stomach or fit into smaller sizes ( I'm a cruel product of today's society), but she does not listen. Its just tat I gain and lose weight so easily. I've lost 12 pounds since the beginning of summer (but that is only because I worked out and walked on stairs and ate um... semi well), but that is no reason to be called anorexic. She threatened me with a weight-loss clinic. And she's forcing me to keep a food log for the next two weeks (half for my other milk problem... but STILL!!! its unfair) so I'll show her and eat as fatty and unhealthy as possible. Its not even that, its that I lose weight by losing a lot of muscle off track season, which will not happen cause I have to keep it up and to train for the 800 (half) spring.
I also want to ...