on either side... pushing both back

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is it my soul to pay? living easily, without too much pain.
maybe thats what it takes for my soul to grow. built up from
my hurt.. my soul still stands to gain, if i'm not gone before my heart is reborn.
everyday i ask myself, are you ok with this if you leave only it behind.
i'm not leaving the life i should live.
guess i should grow warmer.
if i were to grow from the earth, my exterior would grow and grow beautifully.
but on the inside.. you could cut me open.. only to find that the rot took over.
but somedays i feel as though i can light the whole place.
make people smile.. maybe even help one or two. and then i'm reminded..
it only lasts as long as you hold the other side down.
back to reality