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confustion has been everything that has been on my mind, losing touch of what i want through a mess of things i hate, i am having a moment of clarity right now and i know my feeling are true for what i have held close to my heart for so long, for the past week or two i have lost sight of all that....jessica, and i know you have seen this too and i am sorry. i love you for who you are and who you have been....just in the time its taken to write this much of this letter im getting more attuned to my feelings for you and what i want...i think i threw the relationship out of wack when i started expecting things from you, all i used to do try day in and day out to please you and make you happy....no matter how much crap happened no matter how much it hurt me. the feelings i would get from you from when you where happy were the best feelings in my life. i need to think and get things straight in my head before i can expect things or want things for us, i still want there to be a us without a doubt in my heart but i have been on auto pilot too long and things have ran them selfs into the ground......i need to take control of what is happening in order for me to find myself again so that we can both be happy once again.
Love,
Trevor
Love,
Trevor