Damn you howie day....
::i am someone who is looking for love, real love. Ridiculous. Inconvenient. Consuming. Can't live without each other love...::
During a relationship you go from being two different individuals into becoming more like one person but w/ two different parts. You compromise, you make plans, you support each other and build a dream together. You are set on making sure that both of your lives are interwined. No longer is it, Collide is my favorite song, but this is "our" favorite song. You no longer define yourself by saying Red Lobster is my favorite restaurant, but our favorite restaurant. You want to make sure that the other person is part of your life. And enjoys the same things that you do. You become so accustomed to one another that going to the movies is an easy thing. You know what you want to see, there is a method for who gets the tickets, who gets the popcorn. There is no debate about, well should I or shouldnt I get popcorn. YOu know where to sit, when to hold hands, when to let the other person cry. You know what you like to eat at every place and you know what that person likes right down to the condiments. You know when the person is in an uncomfortable situation. You start to know this person as well as you know yourself. You almost become one person, but still w/ 2 unique parts.
Then you break up.
No longer do you want anything you do to be associated w/ a we. This breakup has caused choas in your life. You no longer know what your favorite song is. You dont know where you like to eat. Stability is what you crave. It is hard to make yourself go from a Me to a we. And its even harder to go from a we to a me. Its been awhile since you gone to the movies w/o your other half. You no longer know where to sit, or to get popcorn. You find yourself ordering candy when you dont even like it. You find yourself listening to the radio very selectively. Quickly changing the station when "our" song comes on. Everything is different now. No longer can you just call up the person and share that funny thing that happened today that you know would just make them bend over in laughter. You have to call someone else, who sadly just doesnt respond in the same way. All those funny, cute games you played w/ eachother, arent the same. People ask what your doing, and you dont know anymore. You feel lost, traveling day to day, trying desperately to remember what "I" enjoyed doing.
Eventually, those thoughts subside. You remmeber who you are, and what you wanted. You remember what its like to only be a "me". You are content w/ being alone, for now. Others dont understand, they want you to run right out and find another "me" to become a "we" w. BUt sometimes that "we" was so close to your heart, it takes longer than expected to heal that crack down the middle of your heart. BUt you know that time will come along soon enough. And you hope so deep inside, that this time, the "we" will last.
I still cant listen to collide....nor go to red lobster. But one day...
During a relationship you go from being two different individuals into becoming more like one person but w/ two different parts. You compromise, you make plans, you support each other and build a dream together. You are set on making sure that both of your lives are interwined. No longer is it, Collide is my favorite song, but this is "our" favorite song. You no longer define yourself by saying Red Lobster is my favorite restaurant, but our favorite restaurant. You want to make sure that the other person is part of your life. And enjoys the same things that you do. You become so accustomed to one another that going to the movies is an easy thing. You know what you want to see, there is a method for who gets the tickets, who gets the popcorn. There is no debate about, well should I or shouldnt I get popcorn. YOu know where to sit, when to hold hands, when to let the other person cry. You know what you like to eat at every place and you know what that person likes right down to the condiments. You know when the person is in an uncomfortable situation. You start to know this person as well as you know yourself. You almost become one person, but still w/ 2 unique parts.
Then you break up.
No longer do you want anything you do to be associated w/ a we. This breakup has caused choas in your life. You no longer know what your favorite song is. You dont know where you like to eat. Stability is what you crave. It is hard to make yourself go from a Me to a we. And its even harder to go from a we to a me. Its been awhile since you gone to the movies w/o your other half. You no longer know where to sit, or to get popcorn. You find yourself ordering candy when you dont even like it. You find yourself listening to the radio very selectively. Quickly changing the station when "our" song comes on. Everything is different now. No longer can you just call up the person and share that funny thing that happened today that you know would just make them bend over in laughter. You have to call someone else, who sadly just doesnt respond in the same way. All those funny, cute games you played w/ eachother, arent the same. People ask what your doing, and you dont know anymore. You feel lost, traveling day to day, trying desperately to remember what "I" enjoyed doing.
Eventually, those thoughts subside. You remmeber who you are, and what you wanted. You remember what its like to only be a "me". You are content w/ being alone, for now. Others dont understand, they want you to run right out and find another "me" to become a "we" w. BUt sometimes that "we" was so close to your heart, it takes longer than expected to heal that crack down the middle of your heart. BUt you know that time will come along soon enough. And you hope so deep inside, that this time, the "we" will last.
I still cant listen to collide....nor go to red lobster. But one day...