He makes me feel worthless
Oh god i was just at the store and i saw the most amazing looking girl.. i know most of this doesnt matter.. but i find it completely odd that i am attracted to butch-like women.. i mean that in a good way though.. i dunno.. i've never even had a friend that was super girlie.. but i suppose that has nothign to do with it.. its just attraction i guess.. what i notice. So, of course she had short hair and the cutest face and blah. I really don't think it matters deep down though.. i mean.. i'm not a bitch.
Allisons the most beautiful girlie person i know.. and i have feelings for her. Blah that bugs me.. that whole situation.. Its like standing still and being scared to move forward because it could end up with someone falling.. farrr away from the other person.. and shes my girl.. my poopie.. i don't wanna lose her. But it makes me soo mad :o( cuz id love to hold her in my arms ALL the time.. not just once a month when we actually see eachother.
My love life sucks.. it always has.. it started out sucky as a middle schooler being with boys i didnt even like.. but knowing it was the damn cool thing to do at that age. And they made me feel good about myself ( thats pathetic). Ew.. like i can't imagine i ever liked any of those boys.. more then like friends that cared about me.
I remember coming home in June and sitting my friends down and telling them one by one that i liked girls. Jeez.. i was scared shitless theyd hate me forever. I guess though that their reaction was pretty much "I know kate". Wow.. those days were so long ago.. lol i remember when i saw sarah for the first time.. sitting in a chair by the pool table.. and i remember thinking .. "wow he's cute".. later to find out she was a girl. Ew that sounds mean.. she looks like a girl .. but it was the first time i saw a girl with short hair.. i was an airhead. U know that whole phrase "She had me at hello".. she did.
Girls are evil. And he makes me feel worthless.