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I don't have much to update.....just that I miss my sister! Reading her journal makes me laugh and want to cry~ She is so incredibly talented and unbelievably sad at the same time. When things are trivial I try to focus on the positvie aspects of my life...I wish more people could do that. I believe there was once a time when I hit the fucking bottom....went even beyond that. I remember anger, depression, and a fuzzy haze that followed me wherever I went. I remember feeling like noone like me, feeling fat, unloved and stupid. Sometimes these feelings are still with me. Part of being a woman I guess. I work hard at liking who I am and sometimes when I look into the mirror I say "ok, this is who I am...nose hairs and all!" Sometimes I look into that same mirror and SHRIEK! Sometimes I don't even look like me...."who the hell is that?" I wonder. Wow.....Right now, I do like me. Right now I have goals and ideas and since I just finished cleaning my house I feel accomplished. Right now. I don't even claim to know what Natalies life is like or how hard life is for her. I only wish that I could bestow a little happiness on her. She deserves it. Look into the mirror one day and if the person on the other side does not look like you....make a funny face....you will both laugh.