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oh my god im so sorry...god what the hell have i done??samii im so sorry i screwed up...and i know thats not enough but damn i wish it was! thats all i can really say for always being a stupid bitch and blowing you off....god damnit....i wish i could just fucking make it all better and go back and skip the doctors offices and everything just to hang out with you...im such a bitch for doing that to you....fuck! i just lost one of my only real friends i had...samii knew more about me than almost anyone...we shared everything and she was always there for me when i had a problem with something.she go me off of drugs, and she helped me get thru heartbreak....god i miss her so much and i'd do anything to bring her back but i cant! id do anything to repay her for the mistakes iv made but i know nothing will ever make this just go away.she doesnt want to ever talk to me again...much less be the friend she was to me before. nothing is ever gonna be the same...and ill never be the person i was before...the person i was when i was just around her or talking to her.never.
gabbi