WTF
Headshot I Took 2001
Originally uploaded by full_exposure. I get so mad at myself when I see people show off their work with pride even though it sucks ass! I mean there are a lot of people who's art, photography, or whatever just is BAD and yet they have more self-confidence, motivation, and drive to promote their crappy shit than I do. Sometimes confidence is a good thing and I wish I had it. My work is not near the best at all but, it is better than some people who think they are indeed the best. Fuck.
But, I have always been like this- with art and with anything really... I am not sure why and don't go posting bullshit 'boost my ego' comments either. I am just putting thoughts out there, there is nothing I need. I guess self-doubt about my work could be related to my shyness, they are both awkward and can hold me back.
I do envy those who do think- or know they are the shit. I mean just like those people at the Idol auditions who are delusional about how great they are but, really they have no talent. How do you get just a little delusional- I think it would help. Me? I feel I am more realistic... but, sometimes I wish I was more hopeful or blind to my true limitations.