It's been a year, huh?

[fukyouwaon]

It's been a year soon, huh? Time really flies. I really left you along with the memories we shared, the fun we had, the youth we wasted, the feelings the appreciations the blames. I'm leaving all these in my 20s and I will move to my 30s, without you. Sure, I didn't imagine things would end up like this. I'd be lying if I said I didn't imagine stupid scenarios and we would go back like we used to be and continue being pretentious for the rest of our lives. For the times we shared, it was indeed fun. I was glad to have met you. If I was given a chance to go back 13 years ago, I'd have still chosen the same choice, to walk the same path and still do the same choice at the end.

I've come to finally realized, I'm really done and over with you.
Sometimes things don't work out, and it is totally fine.

I guess we changed, I guess that's how everything is.
There hasn't been a day that I have forgotten you.
Honestly, I miss you, but now I'll erase you.
Because that will hurt less than resenting.

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It's so strange, I definitely loved you so much
Adapted to you with everything, I wanted to live my life for you
But as I keep doing that, I just can't handle the storm in my heart
The real me underneath the smiling mask, my true self is coming out

I'm the one I should love in this world
Me, who shines, my precious soul, now I finally realize, so I love me
Not so perfect but so beautiful, I'm the one I should love
I'm shaking and afraid but I keep going forward
I'm meeting the real you, hidden in the storm

Why did I want to hide my precious self like this?
What was I so afraid of? Why did I hide my true self?

I'm the one I should love in this world
Me, who shines, my precious soul, now I finally realize, so I love me
Not so perfect but so beautiful, I'm the one I should love

I may be a bit blunt, I may lack some things
I may not have that shy glow around me
But this is me
My arms, my legs, my heart, my soul

I wanna love in this world
Me, who shines, my precious soul, now I finally realize, so I love me
Not so perfect but so beautiful, I'm the one I should love

Someone else in the world taught me how to love myself, I hope you had learnt how to love yourself too.
I'm sorry that I didn't end things in a better way. I had no courage to do so because I might not be able to leave afterall.
My one and final last message to you, wishing you all the best in your life.
May you find what you really want.