someday....
ugh, i was gonna start at tomorrows game but i hurt my wrist again yesterday and now strickland is starting for me.
oh well, i will still hopefully get to play.
ive been totally fucking exhausted all week, all of this work is starting to overwhelm me.
football practice goes later and later every day, and i have more and more homework every day, and more and more work to do on the violin.
oh well, i'll manage.
in other news, i dont even know whats up with me and her anymore, i dont know...i dont have time to know, and i dont even care. there is so much to do and think about.... and then theres someone else too that i have had feelings for, its just different, i dont know ANYTHING anymore.
i'll just wait and see what happens.
i just miss having someone to hang out with and have feelings for, just sharing something with them and experiencing those emotions that can only come from a relationship.
not that i'd have time anyways.
it feels good just to sit down and listen to relaxing music and not worry about shit for once, football and everything means constant stress, this is the first time i have felt truly relaxed in a long time. thankyou DJ shadow and pinback :) despite all of my bitching, i am in a very good mood.
these are DJ shadow lyrics to the song "blood on the motorway" which is a fucking amazing song, i reccomend listening to it...i love the lyrics too, the song just relaxes me
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And now, eternity.
Be still now
I am with you,
I am deep within you;
You are at peace.
You cannot be harmed;
You will not suffer.
Breathe deeply,
Breathe in the healing love of the universe,
And breathe out the sickness which has taken you.
I am with you.
It's easy it's like breathing, its like a heartbeat, it's easy
Have not betrayed your ideals
Your ideals betrayed you
What are you going to do?
Your eyes will not close
Your tongue barely speaks
But I can still feel you
I can still feel you
So come, come relax,
Grin, let the changes in
Come on, come relax
Grin,
Let the laughter, let the laughter
Let the laughter begin
Relax, grin, let the changes in.
Time is done
The sun has gone
It's too late
Eternity has come.
oh well, i will still hopefully get to play.
ive been totally fucking exhausted all week, all of this work is starting to overwhelm me.
football practice goes later and later every day, and i have more and more homework every day, and more and more work to do on the violin.
oh well, i'll manage.
in other news, i dont even know whats up with me and her anymore, i dont know...i dont have time to know, and i dont even care. there is so much to do and think about.... and then theres someone else too that i have had feelings for, its just different, i dont know ANYTHING anymore.
i'll just wait and see what happens.
i just miss having someone to hang out with and have feelings for, just sharing something with them and experiencing those emotions that can only come from a relationship.
not that i'd have time anyways.
it feels good just to sit down and listen to relaxing music and not worry about shit for once, football and everything means constant stress, this is the first time i have felt truly relaxed in a long time. thankyou DJ shadow and pinback :) despite all of my bitching, i am in a very good mood.
these are DJ shadow lyrics to the song "blood on the motorway" which is a fucking amazing song, i reccomend listening to it...i love the lyrics too, the song just relaxes me
---------------------------------------------------------
And now, eternity.
Be still now
I am with you,
I am deep within you;
You are at peace.
You cannot be harmed;
You will not suffer.
Breathe deeply,
Breathe in the healing love of the universe,
And breathe out the sickness which has taken you.
I am with you.
It's easy it's like breathing, its like a heartbeat, it's easy
Have not betrayed your ideals
Your ideals betrayed you
What are you going to do?
Your eyes will not close
Your tongue barely speaks
But I can still feel you
I can still feel you
So come, come relax,
Grin, let the changes in
Come on, come relax
Grin,
Let the laughter, let the laughter
Let the laughter begin
Relax, grin, let the changes in.
Time is done
The sun has gone
It's too late
Eternity has come.