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i dont know if i made the right choice tonight. i decieded to go to her job and see her and to talk to her. wich i did. and we talk to for a while and i cried alot and she cried some too. but before she left, this is were i am not sure if my dessition was correct or not. i wound up kissing her. i wanted to really badly. but i am not sure it was the greatest choice. i have a feeling i probably shouldnt have. i miss her so much and i think it just got worse. by me doing this. i hope it didnt but i think it did. i am not ready to move on. i through away the best thing of my life. i want her to know that i do love her and i do care about her very much. i cant get her out of my head. and i just want one chance to prove that i can change and that i am going to change. i miss her so much. my life has been torn apart. i hope i didnt make another bad dessition. i really hope i didnt. i really hope that this was an ok dessition. i just hope it wasnt another bad one. i hope i didnt just make everything worse even though deep down i know i did. i am sorry i kiss her but at the same time i am not sorry. i am not sorry because i wanted to kiss her and i sort of think i needed it. but i am sorry because i think this made everything worse. please tell me everything is going to be ok. please.