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ok, i gotta get my ass turned around or get ready to say good bye to the best person that ever happened to me.
this seemes like a conundrum. two equaly difficult options to one perplexing question. what do we do?
which one is right? to try and better myself because i dont want to lose her, or say goodbye before i drive her away
which is right. which is ment to be?
ok, matrix logic. the decision is already made, i just have to understand why i made it. why did i make it?
am i afriad that i'll lose the best thing in my life, or am i afriad that i wouldn't be able to find anything better.
i think i could find something else, someone else to make me happy. but that dosnt make the decision any easier.
breath in. breath out. lay down and die.
get up again.
kick self in face.
i dont want to hurt her.
this seemes like a conundrum. two equaly difficult options to one perplexing question. what do we do?
which one is right? to try and better myself because i dont want to lose her, or say goodbye before i drive her away
which is right. which is ment to be?
ok, matrix logic. the decision is already made, i just have to understand why i made it. why did i make it?
am i afriad that i'll lose the best thing in my life, or am i afriad that i wouldn't be able to find anything better.
i think i could find something else, someone else to make me happy. but that dosnt make the decision any easier.
breath in. breath out. lay down and die.
get up again.
kick self in face.
i dont want to hurt her.