Long post is long.
la_guinevere! I received your card! Thank you so much! I am an atrocious penpal of not fulfilling the initial Christmas card exchange... I WILL send you a nice package sometime very soon.
After a disappointing fall semester, I have to get my act together and improve my grades. My science GPA, especially, needs some serious brushing up. It's not the end of the world with a couple of B+s or even Bs but to be a seriously competitive candidate for medical school there is an intense pressure to attain all As. It feels even more terrible when you have friends who are succeeding in following this magical gold yellow brick road while you wallow about in in the swamps trying to rid yourself of procrastination and lack of effort.
Unfortunately, I have not being doing that well for the spring semester either. My first round of midterms bought about devastating results and completely killed off any motivation to work harder. It's a shitty situation to be in because you just can't seem to bring yourself to properly do the work you know is extremely crucial. I am not incompetent. No one is. It's just a matter of .
I am aware that I should not compare myself to others, certainly not with good friends, but it's difficult not to go askew when both of you are aiming to enter the same competitive career (not to mention the plethora of other talented people I am up against). This is a little pep talk for myself so that I can finally kick myself in the ass and drill it into my head that I need to start being serious about working towards my goals.I am stressed and tired but I know that my current problems are no match for what I will face when I enter the world of functional adulthood. So looking forward to that.
You feel so alone but yet at the same time you fail to see that your peers are in the same boat as you. That's why we have to work together to form a functional and, more importantly, a prosperous society. The growing disparity between the various classes of society and the lack sustainability (in wealth, etc) for the future of my generation distresses me. With our current society and emphasis on materialism it's increasingly hard for us to look beyond our personal interests and lend a hand to others. Why would we help someone else if we were not to benefit from it? The greater good certainly does not trump my own personal gain. I work hard and reap in the well-deserved rewards for myself, rightfully so. But have we considered that with each personal accomplishment we achieve, we are in a better position to help our peers to also rise a notch on the social ladder.
I probably sound like a naive and idealistic typicalliberalartscollegestudent to any seasoned fully functional adult out there. It's because I am one. Maybe one day when I look back to this journal entry I will scoff at myself for even having these ideas. Of course it's normal to have differences between social classes; it's been such way throughout history. All young adults feel like they are entering a black abyss when looking into the future. Don't delude yourself by thinking that your generation is anything special. My parent's lived through remarkable times like the Cultural Revolution. The fact that I can envision already what I, as a fully functional adult, would say about my own thoughts clearly depicts the conflict between education and reality.
My parents have provided me amazing education is something I am very thankful of. Yet, ironically while I am becoming more educated I am also starting to see the harm that my education is creating. While we are here, we are insulated by the warm fuzziness of a place where ideals can congregate as equals and the real world seems so far away. Due to this so many of us develop wonderful but highly idealistic ambitions which the real world doesn't give the opportunity to fulfill. This is problematic. How are we expected to function in the real world with great efficiency if we have not been prepared for it? If the majority of my generation are brought up as these idealistic individuals... how are we supposed to form a sustainable and prosperous society? It brings about the whole debate of the education system as a whole.
I digress from my initial point of this post. I tend to do that now because there are so many thoughts that cloud my mind.
It's ridiculously cliche but actually being at the transitioning point of your life, when you are about to take your first step into the world of functional adulthood, is incredibly frightening. It has always been terrifying, for my parents, for my grandparents and for all my ancestors who at one point shared my current circumstances. However, I've never thought about giving up. Instead, when you reassure yourself that you are never alone through this process and you think about what you could achieve and the amount of work you have already dedicated towards that. It keeps you going and you just pummel forwards, doesn't matter if it's at snail-speed or lightening-fast, the fact that you are moving forwards is what's most important.
After a disappointing fall semester, I have to get my act together and improve my grades. My science GPA, especially, needs some serious brushing up. It's not the end of the world with a couple of B+s or even Bs but to be a seriously competitive candidate for medical school there is an intense pressure to attain all As. It feels even more terrible when you have friends who are succeeding in following this magical gold yellow brick road while you wallow about in in the swamps trying to rid yourself of procrastination and lack of effort.
Unfortunately, I have not being doing that well for the spring semester either. My first round of midterms bought about devastating results and completely killed off any motivation to work harder. It's a shitty situation to be in because you just can't seem to bring yourself to properly do the work you know is extremely crucial. I am not incompetent. No one is. It's just a matter of .
I am aware that I should not compare myself to others, certainly not with good friends, but it's difficult not to go askew when both of you are aiming to enter the same competitive career (not to mention the plethora of other talented people I am up against). This is a little pep talk for myself so that I can finally kick myself in the ass and drill it into my head that I need to start being serious about working towards my goals.I am stressed and tired but I know that my current problems are no match for what I will face when I enter the world of functional adulthood. So looking forward to that.
You feel so alone but yet at the same time you fail to see that your peers are in the same boat as you. That's why we have to work together to form a functional and, more importantly, a prosperous society. The growing disparity between the various classes of society and the lack sustainability (in wealth, etc) for the future of my generation distresses me. With our current society and emphasis on materialism it's increasingly hard for us to look beyond our personal interests and lend a hand to others. Why would we help someone else if we were not to benefit from it? The greater good certainly does not trump my own personal gain. I work hard and reap in the well-deserved rewards for myself, rightfully so. But have we considered that with each personal accomplishment we achieve, we are in a better position to help our peers to also rise a notch on the social ladder.
I probably sound like a naive and idealistic typicalliberalartscollegestudent to any seasoned fully functional adult out there. It's because I am one. Maybe one day when I look back to this journal entry I will scoff at myself for even having these ideas. Of course it's normal to have differences between social classes; it's been such way throughout history. All young adults feel like they are entering a black abyss when looking into the future. Don't delude yourself by thinking that your generation is anything special. My parent's lived through remarkable times like the Cultural Revolution. The fact that I can envision already what I, as a fully functional adult, would say about my own thoughts clearly depicts the conflict between education and reality.
My parents have provided me amazing education is something I am very thankful of. Yet, ironically while I am becoming more educated I am also starting to see the harm that my education is creating. While we are here, we are insulated by the warm fuzziness of a place where ideals can congregate as equals and the real world seems so far away. Due to this so many of us develop wonderful but highly idealistic ambitions which the real world doesn't give the opportunity to fulfill. This is problematic. How are we expected to function in the real world with great efficiency if we have not been prepared for it? If the majority of my generation are brought up as these idealistic individuals... how are we supposed to form a sustainable and prosperous society? It brings about the whole debate of the education system as a whole.
I digress from my initial point of this post. I tend to do that now because there are so many thoughts that cloud my mind.
It's ridiculously cliche but actually being at the transitioning point of your life, when you are about to take your first step into the world of functional adulthood, is incredibly frightening. It has always been terrifying, for my parents, for my grandparents and for all my ancestors who at one point shared my current circumstances. However, I've never thought about giving up. Instead, when you reassure yourself that you are never alone through this process and you think about what you could achieve and the amount of work you have already dedicated towards that. It keeps you going and you just pummel forwards, doesn't matter if it's at snail-speed or lightening-fast, the fact that you are moving forwards is what's most important.