i'm sorry

[fuir]

i never meant to let you go, ever
nor have i ever meant the other things that i have said
don't doubt when i tell you that i didn't mean it
what i feel for you is too intense for words
has always been,
i reached the state of suppression
but i never lost it, i was only trying to hide my fear
and as i type this my hands are shaking
what i yearn to say to you left my lips when you kept your promise
and now i am broken

but i didn't know what else to do
i hope you can understand that
i was only thinking for you
everything i have done, it was for you. us.
this will be something i will regret everyday,
and i will constantly remind myself of that
but i hope you will forgive me
i apologise for always doubting you
not anymore.
you were very brave

i love you, and i always will