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i just had this overwhelming feeling of sadness rush over me
i don't really know why
well i do, but it was weird because i've been having a pretty good day.
i was hyper pretty much all day too, which is always nice since my energy level is usually like... zero.
but i came across something that just made me really sad and regretful.
it really makes me sad.
like things will never go back to the way that they once were.
maybe it's my fault, but i wish it wasn't.
I mean i wanted to call you, i really did.
I guess i was just scared that you were going to bitch me out for not calling.
i guess i thought that there was nothing that you missed about me.
i guess i felt like i was just something you were settling for... but i knew that once you found someone else, it would turn to me... and you would realize the wrong that i had done, and would think hey.. i have this new girl now. if she wants to be more adomate about things then great, but it not fuck it.
'cause to be honest, my competition... had no competition... i was no competition.
i never really looked at her as competition, and i guess i still don't
i really really like her, there aren't any hard feelings or anything against her.
i really do like her. i just wish that things had never ended up this way.
but now i see that you guys were always meant for eachother.
so i seal this message with some apologies and a few tears...
to show you how deeply sorry i am for the distance and how i stopped calling.
why couldn't i have just picked up the damn phone?
i guess she IS the best friend that you could have ever had.
i don't really know why
well i do, but it was weird because i've been having a pretty good day.
i was hyper pretty much all day too, which is always nice since my energy level is usually like... zero.
but i came across something that just made me really sad and regretful.
it really makes me sad.
like things will never go back to the way that they once were.
maybe it's my fault, but i wish it wasn't.
I mean i wanted to call you, i really did.
I guess i was just scared that you were going to bitch me out for not calling.
i guess i thought that there was nothing that you missed about me.
i guess i felt like i was just something you were settling for... but i knew that once you found someone else, it would turn to me... and you would realize the wrong that i had done, and would think hey.. i have this new girl now. if she wants to be more adomate about things then great, but it not fuck it.
'cause to be honest, my competition... had no competition... i was no competition.
i never really looked at her as competition, and i guess i still don't
i really really like her, there aren't any hard feelings or anything against her.
i really do like her. i just wish that things had never ended up this way.
but now i see that you guys were always meant for eachother.
so i seal this message with some apologies and a few tears...
to show you how deeply sorry i am for the distance and how i stopped calling.
why couldn't i have just picked up the damn phone?
i guess she IS the best friend that you could have ever had.