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sooo tomorrow is probably going to be one of the saddest days... that i've had in a long time.
'cause i wouldn't say it would be the saddest ever, because that would be way too dramatic, and i think that when my dogs died that was a whole lot sadder. is that a word? sadder? if not, it is now.
'cause it's not like depressive sad really, it's like this wishy washy, my mind's a mess, surreal, i'm a FUCKING IDIOT type sadness.
i cant believe it's actually here.
i can't believe he's actually graduating.
and he doesn't even care.
i said hey to him in the hallway today, and there was no smile, no nothing. he just goes "hey, what's goin on"... really hastily and really like... oh, it's you.
it's not so much that i like him anymore, 'cause i've stopped for the most part because i know that i have to if he's graduating. but i think that i still like him. if we started talking again, i think it would be the same as it always was. but there's no way that will happen now. hmmphhh......
it's just that i really honestly REGRET it. and i am one to regret, i must say. i'd like to say that i don't live in regret.
but time and time again, i realize that i do. always.
i guess i never really thought this day would come.........
so now i leave you with this emo closing.^^ good day, mates!
'cause i wouldn't say it would be the saddest ever, because that would be way too dramatic, and i think that when my dogs died that was a whole lot sadder. is that a word? sadder? if not, it is now.
'cause it's not like depressive sad really, it's like this wishy washy, my mind's a mess, surreal, i'm a FUCKING IDIOT type sadness.
i cant believe it's actually here.
i can't believe he's actually graduating.
and he doesn't even care.
i said hey to him in the hallway today, and there was no smile, no nothing. he just goes "hey, what's goin on"... really hastily and really like... oh, it's you.
it's not so much that i like him anymore, 'cause i've stopped for the most part because i know that i have to if he's graduating. but i think that i still like him. if we started talking again, i think it would be the same as it always was. but there's no way that will happen now. hmmphhh......
it's just that i really honestly REGRET it. and i am one to regret, i must say. i'd like to say that i don't live in regret.
but time and time again, i realize that i do. always.
i guess i never really thought this day would come.........
so now i leave you with this emo closing.^^ good day, mates!