Where have you been all my life??
So I finally have the internet back in my house. And I finally have wonderful, fun, cool, sweet roommates whom I'm loving big time right now. And I have a really great friend who is leaving so shortly for 6 months. Miss him, I will. Anyway. Life has been incredibly crazy.
Liam is sick with something still unkown. Could be pneumonia, could be TB, could be some weird Chinese thing. Anyway. He's just in so much pain because he's always in a fever, runny nose, everything hurts. He's such a fucking little cuddlebug when he's sick though - I love it to death. I hand fed him bits of bread yesterday and held the juicebox he was drinking out of because he's just too tired/in pain to lift his arms. It really, really really breaks my heart. I cry just thinking about it. I really hope this little boy gets better soon.
Lina is a doll. She's a bit obnoxious, as most one year olds are. She has the habit of swinging arms and hitting you if she gets upset, or flinging her head all over the place, usually landing a few solid hits to my nose. She's soooooo stubborn and won't fall asleep for anything in the world besides a bottle. Except yesterday I got her to fall asleep by rubbing her nose. It was amazing. But I also made her cry because I was SO exhausted/sad/overworked/worried that I snapped and said in a rather gruff tone "okay, missy. It is time for you to sleep like it or not". And of course, it wasnt' what I said, but how I said it and I think I really scared her because she started sobbing. Oh well. We made up and are the best of friends again.
I've been such a bitch to Steve lately. Well - I'm really torn on that one to be honest. My therapy is going well. I'm learnign to do things for myself, but that also means sacraficing someone else's feeligns sometimes. And I need to learn that it's okay to do things for myself even though the things may not be what the other person agrees with/wants/whatever. I don't know. This is all just really tough. And I have to start my medication like, yesterday, but I'm just so nervous. No day but today, right? Haha. Whatever.
On other very very very shitty sad news - Mr. Binang - one of my favorite people (teachers) ever died this past week. So fucking sad. They think he had a heart attack. I cried so many times for so long when I heard. I never thought I'd be so upset about a teacher from Ladywood dying. He was just such a funny, nice, Nigerian man. I really really like him. he is the only teacher ever that I bought Christmas presents for.
Well, I'm on my way to East Lansing I guess. To see Steve and Vince. Then I'm back here for school and work. Can't wait.
Liam is sick with something still unkown. Could be pneumonia, could be TB, could be some weird Chinese thing. Anyway. He's just in so much pain because he's always in a fever, runny nose, everything hurts. He's such a fucking little cuddlebug when he's sick though - I love it to death. I hand fed him bits of bread yesterday and held the juicebox he was drinking out of because he's just too tired/in pain to lift his arms. It really, really really breaks my heart. I cry just thinking about it. I really hope this little boy gets better soon.
Lina is a doll. She's a bit obnoxious, as most one year olds are. She has the habit of swinging arms and hitting you if she gets upset, or flinging her head all over the place, usually landing a few solid hits to my nose. She's soooooo stubborn and won't fall asleep for anything in the world besides a bottle. Except yesterday I got her to fall asleep by rubbing her nose. It was amazing. But I also made her cry because I was SO exhausted/sad/overworked/worried that I snapped and said in a rather gruff tone "okay, missy. It is time for you to sleep like it or not". And of course, it wasnt' what I said, but how I said it and I think I really scared her because she started sobbing. Oh well. We made up and are the best of friends again.
I've been such a bitch to Steve lately. Well - I'm really torn on that one to be honest. My therapy is going well. I'm learnign to do things for myself, but that also means sacraficing someone else's feeligns sometimes. And I need to learn that it's okay to do things for myself even though the things may not be what the other person agrees with/wants/whatever. I don't know. This is all just really tough. And I have to start my medication like, yesterday, but I'm just so nervous. No day but today, right? Haha. Whatever.
On other very very very shitty sad news - Mr. Binang - one of my favorite people (teachers) ever died this past week. So fucking sad. They think he had a heart attack. I cried so many times for so long when I heard. I never thought I'd be so upset about a teacher from Ladywood dying. He was just such a funny, nice, Nigerian man. I really really like him. he is the only teacher ever that I bought Christmas presents for.
Well, I'm on my way to East Lansing I guess. To see Steve and Vince. Then I'm back here for school and work. Can't wait.