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I think I relized something today (TURN THAT DAMN ELTON JOHN OFF). I just odnt care any more. About..well..anything. I fail to see the point any more. If i dont care about any thing then i can get my work done. Ill be able to get into Westpoint because i wont be wasting my time on usless emotions. Haha. Na, I just dont care as much. I just thought
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You think you're the only one who has strange pictueres behind your eyelids? No, no, brother, it's not true; you're not alone.
Have I ever told you about the strangely comforting scenes I watch behind my colsed eyes? The dogs who bark spinning stars, which then erupt screaming into fireworks? The AOL men throwing one another into burning schoolbuses?
I suppose you could call it insanity, if you choose to label it that. I call it inspiration, and use it to my advantadge; I bring it out into my art. Lovely, storming swirling colors surround a room containing a single bare lightbulb and a lonely chair on which to place yourself.
I think it's that you are able to pick out the beauty within the chaos. That's why you like fire so much, it's chaotic, yet can be controlled. You like having control over the things going on in your life, having that feeling of power, the act of influencing others to see the way you do, or at least to see why.
I'm so proud of how smart you are, how well you can pick up these mysteries of life. Life is but the other side of death, and there is no reason to fear it if you know it is inevitable. *Smile*
We should talk, and compare these odd stages beneath what we can see...
Miss you, little brother.
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