I wonder
Hiya LJ
Its been such a crappy couple of weeks. First my dad has chest pains have to rush him to the doctors. Ends up having to have a pacemaker put in. Running back and forth to the hospital and seeing him look soo frail, when all I could think about was losing him and yes I am losing my dad, slowly. And Im come on here and I write how I feel. Nothing hateful, everything I write I try to upbuild and care about people. But Im tired. Im tried of the politics of friendship. You meet someone and they are kind and try and upbuild you and you try to them. And then it seems like others take that sooo totally wrong and make it seem like because your able to communicate with these new friends that your automatically after them. Let me say this in the nicest way I can. Im not after ANYONE. Im tired. I just want to be happpy and be friends. Did I mention Im TIRED. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Im tired of having to defend how I feel to people that dont care about me. Be my friend, or dont be my friend. I refuse to feel guilty about things that arent there. And I will repeat, I just want to be ME, I want to HAPPY and CONTENT.
I like ME, and if you DONT, well then thats your loss. Quit reading stuff into nothing.
And if your my friend and dont want to be anymore, well then just tell me and it will be done. Just that simple.
KEL
Its been such a crappy couple of weeks. First my dad has chest pains have to rush him to the doctors. Ends up having to have a pacemaker put in. Running back and forth to the hospital and seeing him look soo frail, when all I could think about was losing him and yes I am losing my dad, slowly. And Im come on here and I write how I feel. Nothing hateful, everything I write I try to upbuild and care about people. But Im tired. Im tried of the politics of friendship. You meet someone and they are kind and try and upbuild you and you try to them. And then it seems like others take that sooo totally wrong and make it seem like because your able to communicate with these new friends that your automatically after them. Let me say this in the nicest way I can. Im not after ANYONE. Im tired. I just want to be happpy and be friends. Did I mention Im TIRED. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Im tired of having to defend how I feel to people that dont care about me. Be my friend, or dont be my friend. I refuse to feel guilty about things that arent there. And I will repeat, I just want to be ME, I want to HAPPY and CONTENT.
I like ME, and if you DONT, well then thats your loss. Quit reading stuff into nothing.
And if your my friend and dont want to be anymore, well then just tell me and it will be done. Just that simple.
KEL