Me Against the World, or Me against Myself?
It's 8:51 pm, Easter Sunday night.
I'm not like in serious danger or anything, unless you count trying to fight staying put; i got warned something like this could happen, but i didn't think it was going to be this hard to fight it.
Or that it would be this soon.
We're putting the rest under a cut in case anyone gets triggered by this; and we rarely do this, cause usually we're a system of hard knocks, retards and trolls LOL.
Or worse off that the fight is about how the original thinks none of us exist, and that we’re fake; and that it’s all a fucking lie.
I have proof of this; before i CLAWED my way back to the front, and i mean CLAWED… she started writing a to do list about dumping Rob, removing us from the circle of friends we have gained off and on since about 2005-2007, and worse off - since she so feels we don’t exist, trying to inte.. well she almost won , i think i succesfully stopped the full integration issue happening FOR NOW; i’m sitting eating bbq rice crackers and just chilling downloading wallpapers for my pc..
I do NOT get triggered easily; but i was foolin around with the fact i figured out i could switch easy enough if Reiko was near the front, between her and I. Without much effort; in fact the only thing i have to do is play Nicki Minaj, and you have this high pitched squeal going “BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM! BOOM BOOM!” or “IM FSKING HIGH LIKE A MUTHAFSKA!” ~__~
We were doing that for fun; and in doing so i dont know what it was .. or how, but we practically broke the lock on accident to what we call the basement door.
We’d left it on like a soft lock because we trusted that it was a safe situation; she didnt remember what was up, we wanted to boost her up over time and have her enjoy the safety we’re building within the system…
We didn’t expect her to go psycho on us, and not like “IMMA KEEL U BITCH” like Justin did when he was angry at us lol. (Justin: ~__~ I SAID I WAS SORRY)
But she was like “I’m me, i’m who i’ve always been this is a mistake, this is fantasy .. i’m living a lie, and i need to stop. I’m hurting people making them think i care”
….If she comes on and actually says that, THEN sound the alarm bells. Because by then, Me, Sai and the rest of the crew are probably gone for a LONG TIME.
She’s REALLY good at burying shit until she burns and gets depressed … i picked the trait up sure; but damnit she’s so good at it that’s probably what started this mess.
two rows of bbq chicken rice crackers later…
*looks around* MEH. Two crackers left, and i’m out of ideas on how to continue the rest of this easter weekend before the holiday program… I DO NOT NEED THIS RIGHT NOW.
I’m crossposting this to LJ btw