i let go...
hey. i'm doing pretty damn good concidering all that has gone on this week. heh.
first off. Yesterday Jen, Hilary and I went to the baseball game. WE WON! 9-0. yay! one more game and then off to states. coach is getting jen and i baseball shirts and stuff. i mean, we have to pay for them, but it will be ohh soo worth it.
lol. yesterday...you should have seen me. jen's truck got stuck in the sand and we had to like literally dig it out. it was funny. and soo many people were there to help us. it was funny cause jen left us to go help other people! lol. but it was fun. something i NEVER in a JILLION years thought i would do. lol.
chris called me last night. he's going to copper next year. :( but hopefully he'll be driving by then so we can all hang out and go to holiday park and stuff and PARTY! heh. ohh yeah. there's lots of parties coming up that jen and i are going too. so i'm excited. hopefully dise can come too! heh.
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SPEAKING OF THE DISE...
"i dont know but growing up is hard and i think that this year i have found some people to help me see what i really need. i really have to thank SARA for every thing. she is so awesome i cant say enough. i can always talk to her and know that she cared. i think that we will be freinds for a while just because we work so well. i have this theory that we were ment to be freinds and this year we just finally got closer. wow, shows what jounralism can do. but really she is one of my best friends now and i cant image my life without her."
that is seriously like the sweetest thing ever. but i totally agree 100%. i mean. she's right. like as far as like having friends for a long time and then meeting new people is changes your perspective on things. like i used to think i knew a lot of people so well and that they were the greatest people ever, but now that i have found new people in my life so SHOW ME SOMETHING DIFFERENT, i realize that what i want in people is totally different then in the past. you know. no beating around the bush, just tell it like it is. heh.
DISE:
thank you so much for that lovley part about me. gee whiz! i loooooooooove you so much. i know i can tell you ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. I wish there were more people like you in the world who are honest and true..and if your ever pissed at me you tell me and not ignore me. your striaght forward and just an amazing person. you hyper and out going and everything FUN that i need and HAVE to have in my life. it's kind of like..you with coffeee..i HAVE TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE...I'M ADDICTED. lol. it's funny, but it's true. heh.
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tonight im off to chris's for dinner (maybe) still have not decided. and then were all off to the el movies to see TROY! brad pit and orlando bloom. it's GRAND!
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ohh yeah. i almost forgot. monica and i probably aren't going to be friends again. or even talk ever again. or something. i don't know. i've done all that i can do, i've given her options and it's her choice to do what she pleases with them. i mean we see things totally different because she doesn't feel that she's done not a damn thing wrong.
DOC gave me some really good advice and she told me to just let go. and as hard as it maybe, you know...she's right. it's always hard to let go of something, but i know i can do it. and it will be better for me in the long run. you know? cause i did all that i could. and she helped me know that it was a real eye opener for me because it's like i never even knew monica. and doc says that her letting me go is her way of not being hurt like she's been hurt before when she's given other people more than one chance. so it's understandable. and everytime DOC seems to help me...i see to actually do what she says. heh. so i really will let go. i PROMISE..........the only thing i don't understand is how do you let go of something that hasn'r been there for awhile to begin with?...whatever. who cares. seriously. LETTING GO. that's all i have to know.
<3 sara-
PS: JEN:....LOL..LOL...DUDE..."WE FUCKING KICKED THOSE FUCKERS ASSES AND YOU SAW PIECES OF THOSE FUCKERS FUCKING EVERYWHERE!...LOL IF ONLY HISTORY WAS TAUGHT IN A WAY WE UNDERSTOOD IT! ...hahahahaha.
DISE I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU.
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