+sir chadwick+
Ay yi yi.
What am I gonna do?
Josh hates me.
We were supposed to meet up tonight cuz I've been wanting to talk to him..
but he hasn't answered my phone calls all night.
He says that he's grounded and that's why he can't go out.
But I've got a gut feeling that him and Sarah have still been hanging out and talking.
Why is Sarah the first name out of my mouth?
I don't really know.
I just have a feeling.
Anyways..
So my best friend hates me..
Next thing on the agenda..
I had sex with Chad.
It was kinda scary..
I cried when I got home, cuz I was just in like..this state of shock.
But now that I think of it..I'm pretty sure I would do it again.
The bad part is that I bled..it got on his carpet and two of his friends (or maybe more than that) have seen it.
Ugh.
When I found out I was pretty sure that I was gonna kill myself.
But..whatever.
I mean..shit like bleeding happens and Chad knows that.
He's not stupid.
I mean, he didn't have to tell his friends..but whatever.
That's just what guys do.
I guess those are really the two main things that I wanted to write about.
I don't even know where to begin with the rest of the shit that has been going on lately.
So much drama, so little time.
Maybe i'll attempt a "random shit" entry later.
Until then..
♥
jess
What am I gonna do?
Josh hates me.
We were supposed to meet up tonight cuz I've been wanting to talk to him..
but he hasn't answered my phone calls all night.
He says that he's grounded and that's why he can't go out.
But I've got a gut feeling that him and Sarah have still been hanging out and talking.
Why is Sarah the first name out of my mouth?
I don't really know.
I just have a feeling.
Anyways..
So my best friend hates me..
Next thing on the agenda..
I had sex with Chad.
It was kinda scary..
I cried when I got home, cuz I was just in like..this state of shock.
But now that I think of it..I'm pretty sure I would do it again.
The bad part is that I bled..it got on his carpet and two of his friends (or maybe more than that) have seen it.
Ugh.
When I found out I was pretty sure that I was gonna kill myself.
But..whatever.
I mean..shit like bleeding happens and Chad knows that.
He's not stupid.
I mean, he didn't have to tell his friends..but whatever.
That's just what guys do.
I guess those are really the two main things that I wanted to write about.
I don't even know where to begin with the rest of the shit that has been going on lately.
So much drama, so little time.
Maybe i'll attempt a "random shit" entry later.
Until then..
♥
jess