makes my heart race
so i just realized that this would be my first post of the new year.
that's pathetic.
christmas was good. no complaints.
santa was good to me, even though i helped him out a bit.
new year's was good.
went to the underground/trappers with megzQ and mike.
it totally beat what i did last year.
speaking of last year,
today is the one year anniversary of when jim broke up with me.
and yet i couldn't be happier.
this is why:
about a week ago joe texted me asking if i would cut his hair.
i noticed that his msn name had said "i need a haircut, any takers"
well, i didn't respond to it.
so when he asked me to, i said "what, didn't have any takers?"
he said that he did but that he didn't trust just anyone to cut his hair,
and that since i had cut it before, he knew i would do a good job.
so i go over there on a thursday after work.
i was tired and almost didn't want to go.
i forgot my cape, so he was freaking out about his hair being all on him and stuff, lol
i told him that as soon as i leave he could just hop in the shower.
there were a couple times during the haircut that i wanted to just sit on his lap,
and kiss him to death, haha
but that wouldn't be very professional.
after the cut, i started sweeping up, when suddenly i heard the shower turn on.
he couldn't even wait for me to leave...
when he came out of the bathroom, i had packed up all my equipment,
and was putting on my coat.
he tells me that i don't have to leave right away.
i'm thinking that there's no point of me staying,
sitting on a couch and watching tv with him if nothing is going to happen.
but again he tells me that i don't have to rush off.
i'm a bit confused to his intensions, but i stay.
he grabs a blanket...i'm even more confused now.
i so badly just want to jump on him and take him for all he's got.
but i'm not about to make a fool of myself.
so nothing happens.
but i'm still happy that he asked me to cut his hair...
even when other people offered.
so anyway...the friday that just passed,
i'm at the mall with evan when i get a text from joe.
we make plans for me to go over.
but he told me to not ask any questions about before christmas.
it was a deal.
so basically the whole thing before christmas was just to get back at me for what i did.
to make me jealous and see how i made him feel.
which i totally deserved.
lesson learnt.
so we're back at square one.
no titles, no other people...
keepin it simple, stupid.
now i just have to figure out how to tell the two people interested in me that i'm not exactly available.
that'll be a tough one to figure out.
well, chad will be simple since we just started talking and haven't really met...
just at the salon the one day that jenn was cutting his hair.
erik is another story...
especially when he comes out and brings me gas when i'm stuck on the side of the road.
but he knows that i'm not sure what i'm looking for,
and that i'm not sure if i want to be in a relationship.
but to tell him that i'm messing around with my...whatever joe is....lol
that's not so easy.
and i think the only reason, well, one of the reasons...
that i didn't start dating erik was because i didn't want to get myself involved with anyone,
just in case joe and i were to start back up.
the second reason...as nice of a guy as he is, i'm just not feelin that spark.
i enjoy spending time with him, and he's sweet for sure...
but i don't see myself kissing him, or being intimate with him...
joe just makes my heart race.
other, unrelated news...
megzQ is coming down soon!
and thom is playing two gigs this weekend in windsor!
and we made plans to see each other.
maybe go to the loop and dance our boo-tays off!
that would be sa-weet!
that's pathetic.
christmas was good. no complaints.
santa was good to me, even though i helped him out a bit.
new year's was good.
went to the underground/trappers with megzQ and mike.
it totally beat what i did last year.
speaking of last year,
today is the one year anniversary of when jim broke up with me.
and yet i couldn't be happier.
this is why:
about a week ago joe texted me asking if i would cut his hair.
i noticed that his msn name had said "i need a haircut, any takers"
well, i didn't respond to it.
so when he asked me to, i said "what, didn't have any takers?"
he said that he did but that he didn't trust just anyone to cut his hair,
and that since i had cut it before, he knew i would do a good job.
so i go over there on a thursday after work.
i was tired and almost didn't want to go.
i forgot my cape, so he was freaking out about his hair being all on him and stuff, lol
i told him that as soon as i leave he could just hop in the shower.
there were a couple times during the haircut that i wanted to just sit on his lap,
and kiss him to death, haha
but that wouldn't be very professional.
after the cut, i started sweeping up, when suddenly i heard the shower turn on.
he couldn't even wait for me to leave...
when he came out of the bathroom, i had packed up all my equipment,
and was putting on my coat.
he tells me that i don't have to leave right away.
i'm thinking that there's no point of me staying,
sitting on a couch and watching tv with him if nothing is going to happen.
but again he tells me that i don't have to rush off.
i'm a bit confused to his intensions, but i stay.
he grabs a blanket...i'm even more confused now.
i so badly just want to jump on him and take him for all he's got.
but i'm not about to make a fool of myself.
so nothing happens.
but i'm still happy that he asked me to cut his hair...
even when other people offered.
so anyway...the friday that just passed,
i'm at the mall with evan when i get a text from joe.
we make plans for me to go over.
but he told me to not ask any questions about before christmas.
it was a deal.
so basically the whole thing before christmas was just to get back at me for what i did.
to make me jealous and see how i made him feel.
which i totally deserved.
lesson learnt.
so we're back at square one.
no titles, no other people...
keepin it simple, stupid.
now i just have to figure out how to tell the two people interested in me that i'm not exactly available.
that'll be a tough one to figure out.
well, chad will be simple since we just started talking and haven't really met...
just at the salon the one day that jenn was cutting his hair.
erik is another story...
especially when he comes out and brings me gas when i'm stuck on the side of the road.
but he knows that i'm not sure what i'm looking for,
and that i'm not sure if i want to be in a relationship.
but to tell him that i'm messing around with my...whatever joe is....lol
that's not so easy.
and i think the only reason, well, one of the reasons...
that i didn't start dating erik was because i didn't want to get myself involved with anyone,
just in case joe and i were to start back up.
the second reason...as nice of a guy as he is, i'm just not feelin that spark.
i enjoy spending time with him, and he's sweet for sure...
but i don't see myself kissing him, or being intimate with him...
joe just makes my heart race.
other, unrelated news...
megzQ is coming down soon!
and thom is playing two gigs this weekend in windsor!
and we made plans to see each other.
maybe go to the loop and dance our boo-tays off!
that would be sa-weet!