like I'm gonna keep up with this anyway....
so its the day before the day before I leave for whistler, and I've girl problems of all things.
on saturday I went to a sorority party and quickly got bored of the selection and much of the company, so I decided to import my own entertainment in the form of someone who'll go nameless in case somebody knows somebody who knows somebody. she was pretty, blonde (my 3rd favourite kind of girl) and way more into me than the average girl who's been with the same guy (who isn't me) for 3 years. she got bored enough of the party within a few minutes that we ended up getting spotted going at it in the back seat of my buddy's car. and then again last night AT work, which is something I've always wanted to do. not the getting spotted, the humping. anyway, I find myself thinking of holly. i dunno what it is, but hooking up with this nameless girl actually made me feel horrible. guilty, maybe? which is funny because I don't feel guilty over screwing someone with a boyfriend. and really, there isn't anything between holly and i. we had a sleepover on tuesday of last week and it was the first time we'd seen each other in the greater part of a year. the day after was the last time we talked. so I'm not betraying anything, and at the same time I feel like I'm trying to convince myself
on saturday I went to a sorority party and quickly got bored of the selection and much of the company, so I decided to import my own entertainment in the form of someone who'll go nameless in case somebody knows somebody who knows somebody. she was pretty, blonde (my 3rd favourite kind of girl) and way more into me than the average girl who's been with the same guy (who isn't me) for 3 years. she got bored enough of the party within a few minutes that we ended up getting spotted going at it in the back seat of my buddy's car. and then again last night AT work, which is something I've always wanted to do. not the getting spotted, the humping. anyway, I find myself thinking of holly. i dunno what it is, but hooking up with this nameless girl actually made me feel horrible. guilty, maybe? which is funny because I don't feel guilty over screwing someone with a boyfriend. and really, there isn't anything between holly and i. we had a sleepover on tuesday of last week and it was the first time we'd seen each other in the greater part of a year. the day after was the last time we talked. so I'm not betraying anything, and at the same time I feel like I'm trying to convince myself