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im feeling incredibly sorry for myself right now. its terrible. i have tonsilitus again--can see the inflamed pustules on my tonsils when i examine them myself. as per usual, its the right tonsil that gets infected: never the left. feel like shit. am tired from doing several 1-9.30 shifts this week, and im away from ricky til tomorrow night. last time i saw him was monday morning. i miss him something cronic. especially when im feeling crap and want to just curl up in a ball and die.
one positive is i tend to lose my appetite when i have tonsilitus, so i might lose weight lol. think im going to eat ice cream for the next week. cant be arsed going to the doctors as i dont want to be pumped to the extreme full of antibiotics. it would all be better if the doctors would actually just remove the damn things, but every time ive asked they've told me to fuck off in not so many words.
GHAY!
just watching a shit cam version of mamma mia in a vague, almost desperate attempt to cheer myself up marginally. sorted out my bedroom tonight, too, and its actually cosey, considering im in a massive room. not in the mood for work tomorrow, but i shall pull myself out of bed tomorrow and go in regardless, even if im dying. i dont want to be tarred with teh same brush as leanne.
just want to die though.
fuck off illness. go to hell.
one positive is i tend to lose my appetite when i have tonsilitus, so i might lose weight lol. think im going to eat ice cream for the next week. cant be arsed going to the doctors as i dont want to be pumped to the extreme full of antibiotics. it would all be better if the doctors would actually just remove the damn things, but every time ive asked they've told me to fuck off in not so many words.
GHAY!
just watching a shit cam version of mamma mia in a vague, almost desperate attempt to cheer myself up marginally. sorted out my bedroom tonight, too, and its actually cosey, considering im in a massive room. not in the mood for work tomorrow, but i shall pull myself out of bed tomorrow and go in regardless, even if im dying. i dont want to be tarred with teh same brush as leanne.
just want to die though.
fuck off illness. go to hell.