Life changes.
So Matt decided to not join the Navy, and subsequently not get married. He wasn't ready for any of it. Then he decided he wanted to live in New York.
We broke up on May 29th, exactly the day we were supposed to get married. Funny.
Anyway, we still hang out all the time, he still sleeps over, we still hang out. He wants to get back together, but I don't want to until he gets his shit together and his life sorted out.
Well, last Wednesday (August 24th) I suddenly decided that I should join the Navy myself. I'll get training, discipline, get in shape, learn how to shoot a gun, not have to worry about money and just all in all good benefits. I would change my life. I would get free education. I would have challenged and pushed myself and actually did something interesting or slightly epic in my life instead of the same boring stuff over and over.
I called my parents and talked about it, and the more I talked with them the more I realized that this was a really great idea and I should do it. I mean, I could either not do it and everything would stay exactly the same, or I could just go for it and change everything, my entire life.
Plus considering I don't have a boyfriend or anyone I'm interested in right now. Eric has left for D.C. for law school, Jayna is moving to Tennessee, Dawn is out of state, and everyone else I knew in high school (mainly from Robinson) are just losers doing nothing but wasting their lives... what is really keeping me here?
So Thursday I went to talk to a recruiter. It was a woman, which was pretty great and was exactly what I was hoping for. She was sort of dumb and doing the typical recruiter thing where she just wants me to do everything right away. I took the practice test to see if I qualify and I got a 63. You need a 50 to join the Navy, and they said that was a good score... but it really isn't. I'm just terrible at math and I haven't done any of those equations since high school. She wanted to sign me up to go to MEPS right away and take the actual ASVAB, but I said I wanted to study a little bit before I did that. She was all "I don't think you need to study, 63 is a great score!" which is bullshit. For one, the ASVAB qualifies you for whatever you can do in the Navy, so if I want an awesome or decent job I think I need to do the best I can possibly do. Plus, Matt got a 98 on his... so 63 is certainly NOT a great score.
I looked it up. It's above average, but the next level up is excellent... and that's what I want at the very least.
Anyway, so I've been filling out the paperwork slowly and studying and working out every night to prepare my body for this massive change and all the bullshit I'll be enduring at Boot Camp... whenever that will be.
I'm looking forward to my life changing forever... and for the better.
I know the Navy can't create miracles, and I'm not blindly going into this thinking it will be all great things, but I know what my potential will be there. My future looks a lot brighter going through the Navy than it does just doing this crappy skincare stuff for the rest of my life.
Plus you get free dental and health care, which I desperately need. I just need to take care of myself in general, and the Navy can do that for me. And they'll educate me... for free. It's all benefits. I know it will be hard, and I know it will be challenging, but that is exactly what I am looking for.
I feel like I am a much stronger person than what I've been, and it's time I finally proved to myself and others how much that is true. I need to be pushed, so now I am doing it.
Wish me luck.
We broke up on May 29th, exactly the day we were supposed to get married. Funny.
Anyway, we still hang out all the time, he still sleeps over, we still hang out. He wants to get back together, but I don't want to until he gets his shit together and his life sorted out.
Well, last Wednesday (August 24th) I suddenly decided that I should join the Navy myself. I'll get training, discipline, get in shape, learn how to shoot a gun, not have to worry about money and just all in all good benefits. I would change my life. I would get free education. I would have challenged and pushed myself and actually did something interesting or slightly epic in my life instead of the same boring stuff over and over.
I called my parents and talked about it, and the more I talked with them the more I realized that this was a really great idea and I should do it. I mean, I could either not do it and everything would stay exactly the same, or I could just go for it and change everything, my entire life.
Plus considering I don't have a boyfriend or anyone I'm interested in right now. Eric has left for D.C. for law school, Jayna is moving to Tennessee, Dawn is out of state, and everyone else I knew in high school (mainly from Robinson) are just losers doing nothing but wasting their lives... what is really keeping me here?
So Thursday I went to talk to a recruiter. It was a woman, which was pretty great and was exactly what I was hoping for. She was sort of dumb and doing the typical recruiter thing where she just wants me to do everything right away. I took the practice test to see if I qualify and I got a 63. You need a 50 to join the Navy, and they said that was a good score... but it really isn't. I'm just terrible at math and I haven't done any of those equations since high school. She wanted to sign me up to go to MEPS right away and take the actual ASVAB, but I said I wanted to study a little bit before I did that. She was all "I don't think you need to study, 63 is a great score!" which is bullshit. For one, the ASVAB qualifies you for whatever you can do in the Navy, so if I want an awesome or decent job I think I need to do the best I can possibly do. Plus, Matt got a 98 on his... so 63 is certainly NOT a great score.
I looked it up. It's above average, but the next level up is excellent... and that's what I want at the very least.
Anyway, so I've been filling out the paperwork slowly and studying and working out every night to prepare my body for this massive change and all the bullshit I'll be enduring at Boot Camp... whenever that will be.
I'm looking forward to my life changing forever... and for the better.
I know the Navy can't create miracles, and I'm not blindly going into this thinking it will be all great things, but I know what my potential will be there. My future looks a lot brighter going through the Navy than it does just doing this crappy skincare stuff for the rest of my life.
Plus you get free dental and health care, which I desperately need. I just need to take care of myself in general, and the Navy can do that for me. And they'll educate me... for free. It's all benefits. I know it will be hard, and I know it will be challenging, but that is exactly what I am looking for.
I feel like I am a much stronger person than what I've been, and it's time I finally proved to myself and others how much that is true. I need to be pushed, so now I am doing it.
Wish me luck.